it's jenny's 21st birthday today!

i'm awake early because i can't sleep. how can i sleep when i'm immersed in a dilemma in which i'm forced to make a decision that would alter my whole life forever? right now, i'm planning to check message boards regarding law schools. i hope that would help. but i know no matter what other people say, the decision will be made by me. honestly, i like it better in ateneo. the thing is, i like it there for shallow reasons, such as the atmosphere [ rockwell ] and the crowd. or maybe my reasons aren't shallow at all. still, practicality wise, it's better to go to UP, because it's nearer and the tuition fee costs far less. and i have less chances of getting kicked out than in UP. but i'm still not sure about that because i might excel more in ateneo since the people are more competitive in UP. of course i would already expect that majority of UP law students come from UP also while most ateneo law students come from ateneo. and since [ i think ] most UP students are competitive in nature, maybe it would also be difficult for me to maintain good grades in UP.

this is something i got from the net:

Two thousand people take the U.P. Law Aptitude Exam (LAE) every November: Only 120 are accepted. Once you are in U.P. however, it is very difficult to be kicked out! Most people who take the Ateneo law exams are accepted, as it is a very simple I.Q. test. However, while there may be 400 of you in first year, by the time you graduate; only 100 or 120 will be left. I must confess I do now know about the other schools.

[ from: http://www.herword.com/workbook/legarda02.18.03.html ]

ateneo law studes have been asking why since 1994 (UP's been topping the exams beginning this year except when that BCF girl snatched it and during one tie with ateneo-law). their suggested reasons:

1. 1. the UP-law program is a 4-year bar review
   
2. 2. the supreme court has a bias for UP grads
   
3. 3. UP grads bribe examiners
   
4. 4. it doesn't matter as ateneo has a higher passing rate.
   

from 1991 to 1993 when ateneo topped the exams, UP law studes were asking why, considering that ateneo has never topped the bar two years in a row. their suggested reasons:

1. 1. the ateneo-law program is a 4-year bar review
   
2. 2. the supreme counrt has a bias for ateneo grads
   
3. 3. ateneo grads bribe examiners
   
4. 4. it doesn't matter as UP has a higher passing rate.
   

[ from the atenista.net forum ]

argh. this isn't helping.

Labels: law school

  ¶ 6:29 AM 0 comments links to this post  

  and now for more ground-breaking news... i passed UP law school.

horrors.

my heart and mind were already set on going to ateneo, and suddenly this comes up. i never actually expected that i'll even pass UP, that was why i was so determined to go to ateneo. especially with the screwed up interview. i didn't even expect to pass the written exam in the first place. i was also already getting excited especially when i saw the very nice campus again and when i read the newsletter for incoming freshmen.. i just felt so at home and comfortable in ateneo that i wouldn't want to disturb my current state of peace by going to UP. but still, UP has a lot of other advantages. if i wasnt to be all practical about it, i should choose to go there over ateneo. but i still want to stay in ateneo where everything's so familiar and happy.

i remember writing this entry before on why i want to go to UP, but of course, my entire hard disk was deleted so i couldn't read it all over again to convince myself to go to UP.

maybe i'll just tell my parents that i don't want to go to law school after all and that i just want to take up communications in the states.

[ cringe ]

help.

my day in a nutshell...

i went to the gym with neil again. moro was packed as usual. i don't know when's the perfect time to go there. i saw anya and oggie, and oggie was the one who informed me that the UP results are out already. and he told me that he and tessa passed. he wasn't able to check my name, though. i felt a bit disappointed knowing that they passed because i really felt that i didn't. although i didn't want to go to UP in the first place, it still hurt my ego a bit. but anyway, i let it pass. vinci suddenly texted me later on, congratulating me that i passed in both ateneo and UP. and i was so shocked with the news that we unexpectedly dropped by UP to check the final list just to confirm [ after consuming two rice boxes, pavlova and b.t.s. at gayuma hehe ]. and there i saw my name. papa called me up and told me to go home because he needed manong to drive him somewhere [ he never mentioned anything about it earlier. he is so disorganized ]. and i was supposed to tell him that i passed, although i was having second thoughts about it, but i told him the results were out anyhow. and when i sensed how excited he was through the tone of his voice, i told him that they only released the results for the first batch, not the second batch. and i was in the second batch. i later on found out that he called UP right after that to confirm, so it was really pointless keeping the information that i passed UP from him. i called man. leiya, consulted her about my dilemma. anyway, neil and i went back to ateneo, took pictures with my lomo, then he drove me back home.

Labels: law school, summer

  ¶ 10:28 PM 0 comments links to this post  

  random thoughts. i don't want to eat again ever. i just feel that this entire summer is pushing me to become more lethargic and do nothing everyday but pig out and sleep. and maybe occasionally go to the gym. and take lomoshots. and eat some more.

in a few days, i'll be enrolling for ateneo law. and i'll be going to school in approximately a month. [ just as well. i actually feel my brain cells deteriorating for remaining stagnant for almost three long months. ] i feel that i'm going to college once again. i promised myself that this time, i'm going to make the most out of my remaining years in school. i'll be more active in school, join every possible org i can handle, study very well and not let narcolepsy get the better of me, i'm going to establish and maintain every friendship i can make.

i'm excited and at the same time nervous about going to school.

i know my chances for passing UP law are really slim, but if for some freaky reason i get the slot, i don't know what i'm going to do with my life anymore. my heart is already set on going to ateneo, but somehow, going to UP has its practical advantages. the solution? not to check the UP law results. i'm such an escapist.

i should be fixing up myself already. i'm supposed to go to the gym in a while.

Labels: law school

  ¶ 9:26 AM 0 comments links to this post  

  now for some ground-breaking news... i passed ateneo law school!!!

this means that i can be with my friends and other familiar people for the next four years again, i'll get to study in a very nice environment with airconditioners in every classroom and elevators, i can still use my ateneo planner, i can hang out at power plant in between classes and watch the uaap dlsu vs ateneo games not just as an alumni but as an ateneo student. needless to say, i'll get to stay longer in my comfort zone.

i know, law school is more than airconditioned classrooms and uaap games, but i feel that there's no better time to think about all the perks of ateneo law school than now. i'm sure, in a few weeks time, i'll be immersed in readings and loaded with schoolwork that i won't even have time to think why i wanted to study in ateneo in the first place.

joan and cesar also passed! i hope we'll all enroll together and still stay connected. i don't want to miss college life.

well, i finally have a school. my life is getting more direction and purpose each day. and it's good.

Labels: ateneo, law school

  ¶ 11:27 PM 0 comments links to this post  

  random thoughts. i just arrived an hour ago from la union. i stayed there with my high school friends joy, claudette, margie and joy's boyfriend, mitch. it was my first time yesterday to go to the beach the whole summer. finally, i had the perfect opportunity to wear my board shorts and tank tops. we had fun basking under the sun the whole time. for someone like me who's afraid of staying under the sun even for a few minutes, it was quite an achievement. last night, we lit a bonfire and talked about life the whole night. practically, we were just laughing out loud the whole time about past classmates, past teachers and other things that made up high school life.

i was so used to going out of town with the harkadah that it seemed almost strange to be with my high school friends for two straight days. it was a refreshing change anyhow.

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my mom's sick right now, and she's currently in bed with a dextrose. the first thing i told her as soon as i arrived was, "so.. let's go to the states now.". i'm not a very comforting daughter, am i.

Labels: beach, high school, summer

  ¶ 1:50 AM 0 comments links to this post  

  long time. after my computer crashed the other day, deleting hundreds of mp3's, the ring trilogy, college and high school homeworks, pictures, the websites i'm updating and ALL my journals, i now know better than to put in entries in a private folder in my pc. and i thought all my files were safe there.

i'm on my third month of being idle. i'm practically floating right now, with nothing substantial to do. i've tried fixing my room. that helped a little. right now, i don't know yet which law school i'll be going to [ definitely NOT UP, after that horrifying, traumatic interview ], i don't know if i'm leaving for the states on may 17 [ despite the sars scare and the war in iraq ]. i'm still enjoying the remaining days of summer while the rest of my friends are looking for jobs and getting hired one by one.

take me back to college any day.

Labels: summer

  ¶ 3:56 PM 0 comments links to this post