in the middle of a break from studying for my consti midterms.
i decided to take a break shortly after i realized that my brain can't process anything anymore. not to mention the fact that i'm infused with mixed emotions again [extremely worrying about law school and contemplating the possible short-lived stay there, thinking that i have nowhere else to go just in case i get kicked out, seriously considering that i might not survive it in law school 'cause it's just not for me, feeling lonely once again for some reason]
last night, we ate at encomium (at fbr arcade in katipunan). it was the first time i ate there in around 6 months (?), since it closed down sometime during the second sem. and when i went there last night, i was reminded of how worry-free life used to be, how light the school load was, and i have to accept that i can never go back to that time in my life...
and i'm not even motivated to study or do anything substantial as of the moment.
and it's already almost 4 pm and i'm not even halfway done studying. argh.
Labels: law school
last saturday, i was given the chance to return to college for just one hour - not just to return to ateneo and become a mere spectator of the world of which i'm not a part of anymore, but to actually be immersed in the same [well, sort of] college atmosphere once again, be with some of my batchmates, hang out at the socsci benches, see some of our teachers and just feel at home with the ateneo environment one last time. our yearbooks were distributed yesterday, and as expected, most of our batchmates came to school to get their copies. it was overwhelming to see a lot of familiar faces, even people i don't know personally. everyone was hanging out in his/her bench like before. eerily, when we hung out at the socsci foyer, it didn't feel as if 6 months have already lapsed since i last sat there. it felt as if i was just hanging out there a few days ago. more aptly stated, it actually felt like being home.
pat, jenny, cesar and i ate at eyrie [yes, just like good old times]. we were browsing the yearbook the whole time, laughing at people [hehe] and reminiscing about our block as always.. i still can't believe that my whole college life was reduced to just five hard bound books..
after one day of nostalgia, we had to resume with our post-grad lives. i had to face reality and dig into my law books once again. [and face the reality that i might get kicked out of UP after one year. or even one sem. *cringe*]
Labels: ateneo, harkadah
