i feel uneasy right now. classes are over, exams start in two days, and i feel like i'm just floating around, awaiting my uncertain fate. i always feel like i'm going to get kicked out of law school a few days before the finals. maybe because i'm just not very confident about taking the exams, that i've resigned to the thought that i won't do well anyway, and i feel that two days of cramming won't make up for one whole sem of slacking off. hay.

i realized i haven't blogged for more than a week [ damn dial-up internet connection. nagloloko nanaman!! ]. well, last week, i've screwed up another recitation for crimpro, and it felt really bad and heavy afterwards because i feel that i failed our prof one more time. i won't be surprised if he stops teaching because of one stupid student who just couldn't get it. and i would never forgive myself if he did. hay.

i still don't know if i'm on the right track by being in law school. for sure, there are a hundred other things i'm more interested in and i would rather do than be in law school [ hmm.. be a freelance graphic designer, work with films, work in a magazine, be a writer, an art therapist, art teacher, child psychologist, interior decorator, doctor [?], xerox lady, taxi driver hehe ], and i know that i don't possess any of the skills/the endurance to become a good lawyer [ i hate debates, i hate public speaking, i hate politics, i hate corruption, i find the law extremely boring ] but i really can't back out of this due to practical reasons, my father, his and my reputation, and my messianic complex.

*cringe*

there's this bookbinding workshop i want to attend on oct. 8-10, but i have exams on the 8th and 9th, and i have to study for the exams on the 11th. and it costs 5 thou. oh well.

and i want to buy a frogeye. where will i get P4,500??

i already have a long list of things to do once the finals are over.

sana sem break na.

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