birthday celebrations cushion the blow of growing old; they distract you from feeling all sorry for yourself and from succumbing to depression because you're way past your teenage years and you still act like some whiny adolescent. sure, you're a year older, but at least you have an excuse to binge uncontrollably on good food and spend an intimate moment with long-time friends, at least for one night. needless to say, i had fun last night at my birthday dinner, and it turned out as nice and simple as i expected it to be. it was probably the first time the harkadah got together again since sarah's despedida last feb. [well, except for pat and jonel who are currently in the states] joy [one of my good friends from high school] also came; actually she drove all the way from her work in makati just to be there. everything's still the same between us - except for a few horror stories [hehe] about work or looking for one [which some of us, including me, don't have yet]. even the overused celebrity bloopers, the kajologans, the phenomenal "penny hair", the "left-right" pose [and other 80's dance moves] and vinci and neil's corny jokes haven't lost their touch yet. maybe we're just really more shallow than the rest of the population that these things still crack us up easily, even if we talk about them over and over again. hehe.
some relatives and neighbors came also. i told my mom i wanted my birthday party to be as simple and intimate as possible [read: with just a few people and without the balloons and the big cake with a candle, which she ordered without my knowledge on my 20th birthday]; that's also why i invited only my college friends, two high school friends and some law school friends, just in case they could make it, although i knew they all dispersed to their respective hometowns already [believe me, we live in different areas all over the country]. i didn't want my attention to be divided among different groups of people and let anybody feel uncomfortable or left out. but apparently, my mom still invited some of their friends. not that i'm complaining though, considering she invited people they're very close with anyway. at least she did away with the balloons and the cake. hehe. surprisingly, i also received presents. again, i'm not complaining. hehe.
anyway, for all of those people who made my life meaningful for the past 22 [gasp] years, thank you, and to the first person who's going to buy me a nice digital SLR camera [a digital videocam would also be just as good] as a birthday gift, believe me, you're my new bestfriend.
i am not kidding.
here are some pics from the party: [sorry for the poor quality]
joy, me, jenny, james, joan, di, [other side]: neil, neil's kabarkada/my neighbor james, weki, penny and vinci [not visible]
my cousin kris and me
in a few hours, i'm turning 22. yes, twenty two years old. [need i emphasize it more?] it seems like only yesterday, i was a 12 year old, pimpled adolescent, typing on a worn-out mechanical typewriter a day before my 13th birthday, writing about my anxiety and excitement on becoming a "teenager". 9 years later, i'm still the same disturbed girl - less pimpled, yes - but just as anxious about getting older as ever. like my 12 year old self, i'm still not over many insecurity issues i've had since i was 3, and i'm still in the process of exploring many possibilities i never thought of touching on before. because of this, i feel like i'm lagging behind my same aged peers in terms of maturity. most of them know what they want in life, some are actually planning to get married already [you know who you are. heehee], some are pretty sure of their career in law or some other field, some are paying for their own space, while i'm still behaving exactly how i used to when i was in high school [sans the view that going to parties and bars and all other noisy places is oh-so-cool. at this age, there's more value in simply laughing and talking intimately with your friends in a restaurant that serves really good food] - i still let my parents do everything for me, i still don't adapt well [i.e., i still have mild tantrums] when i don't get what i want, and yes, i still sleep in the same mickey mouse comforter i got when i was 10. somehow, i feel that i have to be more self-sufficient/independent, start imparting something substantial to other people using my God-given talents [if any], and stop being such an inconsiderate brat who uses her parents credit card indefinitely and expects the whole world to conform to her beliefs.
[agh.] i don't want to grow up. damn this quarter-life crisis.
last sunday, neil and i had an alternative "gimmick" - we spent a whole afternoon in the eastwood arcade. hehe. i never realized it was so addictive. we rediscovered air hockey [very wrong time to wear a short skirt. argh.], which we played thrice, then raced with the daytona USA, then rented a videoke room and sang a few songs. hehehe. well, it was a cheap thrill - we spent only around 200 bucks. cheaper than watching a movie for two at greenbelt or pigging out at cafe adriatico for lunch.
here are some pics taken at the videoke room:
argh. i don't want to go back to law school!! it just drains my energy and sucks all the fun and color out of life. (yes, i am a self-confessed big bratty whiner) jenny and i had a short talk on our dreams to pursue a career in graphic design and anything else right-brained, but of course i wouldn't be able to go through that until i graduate from law school and pass the bar. 'cause, according to my dad, it's still best to have this "opportunity" of having a good, stable profession (even if i terribly suck at it, not to mention the fact that i simply loathe the profession and everyone involved in it).
anyway, i forgot - i should be enjoying my break.
Labels: summer
i've spent the past two days doing nothing but surfing the net. i also watched big fish yesterday with neil at greenbelt [then ate at "recipes" afterwards. yum yum.]. i don't know why they're only showing it at greenbelt and glorietta - it's such a nice, feel-good, magical film [not to mention wholesome] that they should show it in every theater line in the city.
anyway, on more movie news, i just received an e-mail that there will be a movie based on the children's book, "a series of unfortunate events" by lemony snicket, starring jim carrey as count olaf and jude law as lemony snicket. yay. i hope they'll have it shown in the philippines even if the series didn't gain as much popularity as harry potter. check out the pics here. i already completed the whole set by the way (up to book 10). they're going to release book 11 sometime soon.
weki and i planned an ukay-ukay sale, by the way. i should start collecting old stuff now.
i rarely take online quizzes, and i hate encountering blogs which contain mostly results from such quizzes, but this one is just too interesting to pass up. i came across this site yesterday, "which philippine presidential candidate are you?" i took the test, and i am....
uhh.. right.
well, at least that's over and done with. and at least he didn't ask me to come back in May to retake the test. or i wouldn't have enjoyed the rest of April.
these are some things i want to pursue this summer. i just realized two months is too darn short for all of them:
i'll post the la union pics soon. when i find the time. like tomorrow. hehe.
Labels: law school, summer
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