Labels: rant
this week was better than last week, and maybe more productive. i was greeted with bad news last monday though, which is bothering me until now but not as much as i did that day.
bad things.
re. the bad news. i didn't get the desired grade for recit in locgov. apparently, he gave me a pretty low grade for an objectively fairly decent recit, which i honestly thought, modesty aside, merited a grade higher than 2 or at least 2 [ which is a pretty high grade, considering my standard recits before ]. argh. so if i'm going to take the extremely difficult exam, i am at risk of failing the subject. i've been thinking about dropping the subject again, but right now i'm more inclined not to after thinking it over several times.
irritability.i don't know why, but i seem to get so irritated with the littlest things. like getting LSS every time i hear sam milby's close up song [ i know there's a mob of sam milby fans out there, please don't attack me ], feeling law students [ hello, pare-pareho lang tayo.. ], people who don't shut up when you don't really care about what they're saying, chauvinistic wrestling shows on jack tv.. basta, lahat.. wala lang.
good things.
we're done with locgov already [ our prof's been itching to leave the country since the sem started ], which means, i don't have classes anymore every friday and monday. yay! which also means i can go with my mom and sister to singapore from feb. 10-12. [ never mind the fact that by that time, i'm probably worrying about the results of the locgov finals ] my sister's going there with some colleagues, and my mom and i are just tagging along. i'm really glad we have this opportunity, because my unadventurous family would never go someplace just to tour around, there always has to be a reason - a business trip, relatives.. when i grow up [ hehe ] i will save up enough money so i could visit places in the philippines i have never been to before, like sagada and most of the south areas. and also explore europe and asia.
last wednesday, i got to attend the dawn watch/prayer meeting [ at long last ]. yes, i was able to wake up at 4:30 in the morning and arrive at UP at 6 am. i've been invited to join since last year [ december ], but i always had reasons not to go [ school, mostly ]. when i arrived at sunken, it was so dark and it was even raining outside, so i was a bit apprehensive to get out of the car. but i had no place else to go anyway that early in the morning, so i proceeded to the sunken garden stage. i didn't know much from the group, and it also didn't help that most of them are in college [ which made me feel so old all over again ]. but i'm glad i attended, 'met new people, 'talked with the older ones. somehow, it clarified things a bit for me. it was actually then that i thought about my stand on whether or not to drop locgov. i just realized that problems are there to keep me strong and make me a better person, and if i drop the subject [ this would be my second one at that ], i will be taking the easier way out and i don't think i will learn anything from it. of course, there's no assurance that retaking the whole course would be a lot easier, but i think maybe it's time i just study this thing and get it over with. i'll just do my best. if i pass, well and good. if i don't, at least i tried my best.
veronica mars episode 11. after almost a month without the show, leaving me clueless on what happened to meg's baby [ hehe ], i finally got to download the latest episode today. 'loved it. basta, ang galing. after every show, i always end up staring at the screen for several seconds while the credits are displaying because i'm just too awestruck. i'm not exaggerating. [ and you must think i'm such a freak now. hehe ]
the civpro group thing. [ haha ang nerd.. ] we have this project where we're all in little "firms", filing pleadings against each other. so i'm a free rider in the group because i have no idea what most of them are trying to discuss, but it was good working with other people in the block, and somehow i'm getting an inkling on what i'll be doing for the rest of my life. yes, deal with loads of stress.
romeo and juliet. my cousin kaye had an extra ticket, so i went with them to watch the play last night. i like how they made the whole set up contemporary. some of the characters were hilarious. i think the music was also great. and you gotta love the glamorous 80's costumes. skintight jeans, shiny fabric and such. haha. sir ron capinding was in the cast [ fyi, our instructor in acting class before ]. too bad we didn't get to see yanny as romeo though. grabe i can't believe i was in a play with these people when i was in first year high school. hahaha. that would've been a great opportunity, if only i could act..
i still wasn't able to play disc at the meralco beginners' night though, and that would be my goal for next week.
and in line with that, i realized the importance of breaking down goals into smaller ones. it makes things more doable. recently, i created a 43 things account. it's this site where you list down all the things you want to do or plan on doing. i know i haven't actually started on with some of the things i've listed, and some of them seem too far out to accomplish, but it's just nice to see them in one neat list, making them look more realistic and possible to accomplish.
ayun lang, i'll post again later. up dharma down album launch later. to my mommy in the class kris kringle last dec., i know that's what i asked for, hindi pa pala nalaunch and she tried looking for it. hehe.
Labels: church, law school, random, veronica mars
this is my ideal sched for today:
6 am: weekly dawn watch prayer meeting at UP
10 am: civpro class [ which i supposedly studied for so when i get called i can give a kick ass recit ]
2 pm: locgov class [ likewise ]
3-7 pm: study intensely for civpro
7:30 pm: play disc at meralco field
but of course, i didn't stick to my sched like an annoyingly organized person:
3 am: woke up to study for locgov
4:30: got tired and slept
8 am: woke up again; decided to cut civpro
9 am: studied for locgov while chatting with my siblings through webcam
2 pm: gave a crappy recit when i should be getting 1+ grades because i need to make up for my bad recits in the past if i want to pass the course
3-5: chismisan with daisy when i should be studying. hehe
6: ate dinner. decided not to play disc anymore
8: went home from eastwood, where we studied [ not ]
9:42 pm: watching american idol and not doing anything productive
oh well. there's always next week. :P
Labels: law school, random
a few days after our new year celebration, i suddenly came across a startling realization: technically, i'll be taking the bar exams next year. it is, however, conditional, and will only occur in the event that i graduate. it's practically going through mental and psychological suicide. just thinking about it right now scares me. and i'm not just worried right now because of the exam itself; it's about growing up, moving on, starting a career. you get the picture. one of these days, i need to grow up. i would need to start taking school seriously and realize that this is the only road i'm taking, this is the only option i have and i screw up on this i'll be back to square one. i would have to stop relying on my parents' money/credit card [ which i minimized using recently because of an article i read about shopaholicism ] for my impulsive shopping sprees. i would need to work, learn to cook and pay my own cell phone bills. so far, the only (in)substantial things i've done are: (1) i've started buying clothes for OLA [ office of legal aid ] duty and (2) i've named my possible children [ violet, stellar and margaux. i don't have names for boys yet. :P ] and i may even have to face the fact that i would need to take OLA this summer so i would have a lighter load come first sem 4th year [ if i get to 4th year ], and i won't have any more summers ever.
hay. i hate pressure.
Labels: bar, law school, random
'still have hangover from our new year celebration at home [ technically, it's my sister's house, but it's just located across the street from our place ]. it was probably the best celebration we've had since 2003. [ almost ] every new year, we invite most of our relatives from our dad's side over. we always hold a distinctly pinoy celebration, complete with the fireworks, food, variety-show based games, baduy songs, coin pasabog and videoke/magic sing. this year was no different. but last jan. 1 was probably the longest celebration we had; the guests arrived at 7, we started the games at around 10 and finished at 3:30 in the morning. we started with the 3 games arranged by me, manang lala, my cousin kaye and my brother-in-law, bombee. the first one was "henyo"; i haven't actually seen the game on GMA, but i saw a modified version on the ellen degeneres show. a piece of paper with a word scribbled on it is placed on the first person's forehead, and he's supposed to guess what it is. the partner is supposed to help him by answering yes/no/puwede answers to the first person's questions. surprisingly, i won! haha. and then we had world war III, a rather physical game. surprisingly for me, our group won also. [ i hope this year, things will be like that, i.e. favorable to me. i've had enough kamalasans to last me a lifetime ] we didn't join the third one because we facilitated the game.
we had the fireworks, and i was quite amazed to discover that the general quality of fireworks in the philippine market has improved. even the traditional fountain does not look like a volcano spewing out molten lava anymore; the ones my dad bought even had sparks of different shapes and colors. we were also lucky to have neighbors rich enough to buy those nice mini world-pyro-olympics quality fireworks. we were watching four displays alternately from different areas in the neighborhood. hehe.
we ate, of course. we didn't have as much food this time compared to the spread during noche buena, but we had more fun nonetheless.
upon seeing the cake, my cousins' great grandmother from their mom's side, darra, goes, "ay sinong may birthday?" hehe. well, judging from the cake decor, it's the creepy little naked baby sitting on the icing.
my mom throwing out the coins. nanang also threw out coins so we had twice as much money.
everyone waiting for the coin toss
my sister extorting my niece's coins...
and pocketing them as her own. hehe
and then we had videoke using auntie abbe's magic sing until 3:30 in the morning. everyone sang, voluntarily or by force [ in my case, of course it's by force ]. only the kids were actually singing, until papa announced that he was giving prize money to the person who got the highest score. in the seniors' division, it was manong iam. i think in the juniors' division it was lyka.
after the whole event, i felt a momentary surge of emo-ness [ hehe ] knowing that some of my relatives are moving to the states soon [ again ]. auntie abbe's whole family is moving there on march at the latest, even manang lala, after she finishes the exams. oh well. everyone's migrating that majority of our clan is actually there already.
yesterday, we attended the 6 pm service at GCF to start the year right. i was with auntie abbe and my cousins. we ate at marina afterwards.
and now we're all back in the real world. i'm back again in malcolm hall after a long hiatus from law school. good thing i wasn't called. i hate hate hate it all over again. blah. well, at least there are other things to look forward to this january.. and at least i have too much law school stress to think about unnecessary things/feelings.
i put up a second multiply account because we had too many pictures last new year's eve, so all of the pictures are there. my sister from the states got so intrigued with the "pinoy ako" song that she asked me to play it while we were talking through skype and asked patti to demonstrate the dance moves. [ patti declined, but mama was more than willing to do it ] haha. after a while, i saw sophia through the webcam doing the dance steps. bwehe.
so anyway, i wish everyone a ROCKING NEW YEAR!!!! hope we do more and complain less, love more and laugh at people less [ haha we'll see about that.. ].
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