meet the top 7....
hehehe.
missing in picture: grace. late, as always. haha.
law school's over. i've graduated. all similarly situated law students would know, however, that the worst is yet to come. but at least i'm free from humiliating recits in the malcolm hall forever (..on to the courtroom..)
the ceremony was far from spectacular (mitch couldn't have said it better hehe). i zoned out a few seconds after the chief justice started with his speech. half the time i was playing with rally pro in my phone. maybe if daisy/mia/oggs/marie was seated beside me we could've played SOS. better yet, we could've played boggle (as marie suggested during banking class. hehe). i had to do something to keep me busy. staring at the oldies onstage could've easily put me to sleep. at that time i was still haunted by the question, "why did i choose this profession again?" i just couldn't see at that point how fun and exciting the law is supposed to be. at least dionne's speech kept me awake until the ceremony ended.
i was expecting to get a bit senti afterwards, but i didn't. i was more teary-eyed during my college graduation. maybe because back then we knew we were going on our separate ways. after the law school grad., well, it's not like things will drastically change afterwards. we were going to see each other in bar review class the next day anyway. besides, i don't miss law school at all. if anything, i'd miss my law school barkada. but even while we were in law school, we didn't really see each other very often; we've been used to living separate lives. and we can easily arrange reunions in the future (lalo na pag may manlilibre. hehe).
despite my warning, my dad still shook the hands of everyone on stage. fine, brods will be brods. i think my parents and grandparents slept through some parts of the ceremony (in between bashing certain people.. hehe.) well, at least i'm happy that they're proud.
of course, as expected, there were a lot of legal luminaries (duh) and other prominent people (which does not include anne curtis). we didn't get to have a pic with the chief justice onstage though. darn.
but i did have my pic taken with...
the dean (in blue steel. di naman na siguro babawiin diploma ko no? hehe)
sir te (and gracie)
clark kent. hehe joke lang stan. our super OC team leader.
and kuya kim mark, my photographer/P.A./driver. hehehe. he got there earlier than my parents, who were late because my ma went to the salon to have this done:
ang taray! heehee
wow. it's been 4 years. around the same time i've officially started my blog. (not counting the college journal entries) grabe. and i'm turning 25 soon. waaaaahhh...Labels: law school, UP
gradweyshun
and because i don't have any other pic to post:
mwehehehe.
of course, it won't be UP without the "sablay":
haha. halatang tinamad magcrop. kita pa yung jeans.
so i'm graduating tomorrow in a few hours. i'm in the list of graduates, they gave me the toga, and some of the grades that are long overdue have been released already, so i guess i am graduating. i still don't feel very proud about it though (as i've mentioned in some post a few weeks back). i'm not very satisfied with my performance.. there are only a few (maybe less than 5. definitely less than 10.) subjects that i feel proud about passing. the other subjects, i think i passed because: a.) of the dartboard system, b.) pure pity, c.) they're walang kwentang electives (i got the highest grades in these subjects =P) d.) the teacher doesn't really flunk anyone e.) the profs are my dad's brods/friends. hehe. ewan. it doesn't really matter now. we're all marching up the stage tomorrow later. and i think everyone else will be all giddy and excited anyway, i'm sure that will be contagious.
i gave my parents a little briefing for tomorrow. i know they're more excited than me on this whole thing:
- if the parents of the batchmates ahead of me did not go up the stage, don't go up as well.
- to papa: don't take a bow. only the graduates do that.
- a "lianne" will be called for cum laude. that's not me. you know i don't have an award. no, i'm not going to surprise you with an award.
- it will take 4 hours. bring a pillow for tatang (my grandpa who insisted on going).
- to papa again: don't shake the hands of everyone onstage.
i like my law school grad pic better than my college grad pics though. i think it has something to do with the eyebrows. hehe. ewan. Labels: event, law school, UP
lakbay lomo
LAKBAY LOMO Exhibit Launch on APRIL 21, 8 PM at DPI Astoria Plaza, Ortigas. Near Shaw Blvd.
I contributed to the lomowall again. 'wasn't able to attend the other lomowall launch though, but i'm attending this one. Here's a preview (c/o Jill):
i'm studying for the
bar , don't worry. consider this my "break". hehe. Labels: artsy fartsy, lomo
wish you were here...
and i was still here:
hehehe. links to boracay albums:
day 1,
day 2,
day 3, and
day 4. entry to follow. =)
vote for trina and derek!
no, they haven't gone political. hehe. vote for them (couple #7)
here and help them get a photobooth at their wedding for free. yun lang! go trina and derek!! yihee! (fyi, they've been together since grade school! hahaha! ibroadcast daw ba) =D
Labels: ateneo
the other b word...
this holy week, for the first time ever, i'm going to boracay! yes, i haven't been there before and i know i'm a decade late =P we're leaving manila tomorrow at 8:30 am. the whole island must be pretty crowded right now, i don't know if i'll still have space to breathe in. i'm partly feeling guilty for not staying home for the next 4 days though, thinking that i should just spend the time studying at home for the bar. but, i guess 24 hours from now, while i'm presumably having dinner with mark and my sister's family by the beach, enjoying the view, the weather and everything else, i would probably ask myself why i even thought twice about going. after all this, i promise, i'll get down to work and stick to my rigid sched. gawd. too many pressures for this exam.
travel checklist:
- shades
- disc (sinabi ng wala ng space sa beach eh.. hehe
- frogeye
- lomo
- fully charged digicam
- fully charged cellphone
- outline reviewer in political law by a.b.nachura (hehe. seriously, i'm bringing this. security blanket.)
i remember daisy texted me last week, i think that was after their corpo finals:
daisy: pst. ano gawa mo?
me: eto, nag-aaral para sa bar. nasa rem law na ako. ikaw?
she calls up a few seconds later:
daisy: di nga, nag-aaral ka na?
me: hinde noh, nagsusukat ako ng gagamitin ko sa beach. hihi.
it literally took me how many days to prepare a wardrobe for my entire stay at the beach. haha. i was carefully fishing out the best swimsuits, the best tops and board shorts. i've accumulated them over the years, and most of them i've bought in the US on sale. some of the swimsuits even have tags on them still. i never had the opportunity to wear them before. finally they'll see the light of day. hehe. i've packed all the good summer wear in the luggage. i swear, if that gets lost on the way, i'm going to...sue based on the contract of carriage. hehe.
well, i did something productive for the past week - i disposed of piles of cases / handouts that i don't think i'll be able to use anymore. my room can breathe again with some of the boxes gone. i also gathered all the important outlines / materials that i can still use for the review.
i also killed time staying at home with my nieces - patti and bianca. i realized that they have nearly graduated from the disney-nickelodeon-cartoon network phase and are now watching more of mtv and myx. i caught bianca watching one of hale's mtvs and i asked her if she had a crush on the lead singer. she giggles and replies, "eh may girlfriend naman ata siya eh". hehe. i was actually expecting to hear a resounding "NO!". again, i was underestaming how "grown-up" kids today can be. the other day, she was asking me to download songs on limewire (songs by "my chemical romance", "linkin park" among others. o diba.). and then she asks, "tita lianne, pumupunta pa ba mga friends mo dito?" i didn't know if she was referring to my college friends or my law school friends, so i just said, "di na, may work na kasi sila." she goes, "ikaw may work na?" "wala pa." i say. and she says, "di pa naman sila nagkaka-wedding?" i answer, "di pa naman masyado". and then i paused for a second and thought, did i just have this conversation with a 9 year old?
it's amusing to watch patti and bianca spend their summer days though. it reminds me a lot of me and my cousin kris (who just lives right across the street), circa early to mid 90's. like my nieces, we also have a 2 year difference. we would have fun spending the entire summer together, no matter how hot or boring it could get. we also had inevitable fights that would die down after a day or two. back then, we would also watch mtv almost all the time (except for those summer days when there was a scheduled brownout everyday =P), listen to rx 93.1, record our favorite songs on the radio with the tape recorder (not downloading them on limewire), and play them on our walkman (there was no portable mp3 player yet at that time). it's also funny how bianca constantly bugs patti whenever patti writes stories, blog entries, etc. on the pc. 'reminds me how i used to bug... hmmm, no. i wasn't that makulit. hehe.
and i finished reading the time traveler's wife. haaay it's so sad. and good. 'makes me want to cling to mark and make sure he doesn't involuntarily travel to a different time period.
hehe tama na nga ang keso.
btw, my birthday's in less than 3 weeks! i'm turning 25! hahaha =P
have a peaceful holy week! =DLabels: beach, family, mark, random, summer
last saturday...
mark and i went on a daytrip to sonya's garden in tagaytay. he drove all the way there, (unlike
last time), so it was just the two of us. =) lunch was great! we enjoyed everything from the bread appetizer down to the petal-garnished chocolate cake. i'm just enjoying the last few weekends before i get down to work and study for...(
no don't say it!) the B word. haha. more pics in my
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on our way home from tagaytay. me, the funny frog and mark. traffic was bad, so i had to do something to amuse myself. hehehe
one nice afternoon =D
see, petals on the chocolate cake. hehe
two happy, satisfied and very full customersLabels: food, mark, summer, tagaytay, trip
speaking of the B word...
congratulations to the successful bar examinees!! congrats mario, karen, bianca, punch, deb (who was my buddy when i was in 1st year) for making it to the top 2, the other Winlawers and Menlawers who passed, and to batch 2007. i'm so happy for you!!!
kami na next!! wehehehe x_x
Labels: bar, law school
let's save the happy, senti thoughts for graduation
last day of school (sana. hehe) with sir b.
not in picture: "butchoy" (hehe joke lang jappy, peace tayo =P)
school (hopefully law school) is over for me, but i don't feel relieved. for one, there's that unsettling feeling left by my last two final exams, which ended badly. (i know, two 5 unit exams in one day was a bad idea. but it's not like i could do anything about it. i swear, i just committed suicide. my head was throbbing so bad at the end of the night i wouldn't be surprised if it explodes and sends out little bits of codal-filled neurons flying.) i'm still troubled about the outcome of those exams, especially corpo. and why corpo? because if i don't get a passing grade in that subject, i won't graduate this year and the agony of taking the bar will be delayed for another year. (and i would disappoint my parents inadvertently yet again by not graduating with my batch). i couldn't really think about graduation or bar review yet until i'm 101% sure that i passed all my subjects.
that aside, i look back at the past 4 years and feel that i never actually accomplished anything (to the point that i'm thinking about skipping graduation because for me [yes, just me] it's a pointless ceremony). there's really no sense of fulfillment. i don't feel that i conquered anything. i feel like i just dragged myself through law school while being either mediocre or terribly bad at it. i was never really passionate about the law (unlike some people i know who really take it seriously). when i was in first year, i was at least hopeful that there's a purpose why i got accepted in UP, that maybe, even if i'm not completely into it i would appreciate what i'm doing along the way, be inspired, be motivated to study AND get good grades in the process. 4 years later, i still haven't got a clue what that "purpose" is. if anything, i'm more confused now.
and it's also disheartening that my last sem ended quite badly. in my last, desperate attempt to turn things around, i chose two really good teachers for the last sem, the type that would really push you to study because they're capable of giving 5s. i did study, but for some sad reason, it just didn't reflect on my grades. worse, i think i've let one of my profs down (the same way i felt 2 years back when i've disappointed a prof who's had such high expectations of me. well, that "expectation" came about because of a person i'm unfortunately linked to by blood). or maybe, i still didn't study enough. maybe i should've ate, slept and breathed law. maybe i shouldn't have been sleeping 7-8 hours a day (oops) and used the time to study instead. for the most part, i feel regretful that i didn't do well. but there's also a part of me that knows that i already did so much. maybe the same degree of work would've brought me far in college/high school, but it didn't in law school. you could study, memorize all you want and STILL find yourself at the bottom of the class at the end of the day. it's just so sad like that.
and then i've been wondering what life would be like if i took a different path altogether. let's say i enrolled in ateneo. definitely, i would've been kicked out early on (hehe). but would i have more appreciation for the law? would i have been more motivated to study? and what if i didn't enroll in law school at all? could i have gone farther if i were in a different field? would i have contributed more to humanity/society/my own self-actualization? could i have been happier?
i've been preoccupied with these thoughts lately but in the end, i (almost) always get back in the now and think: crap, less than 5 months to go before the bar exams. i'll worry about my purpose and self-actualization after it's all over. =PLabels: law school, rant
haha. halatang tinamad magcrop. kita pa yung jeans.
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