Labels: family, high school, mark, random, sophia
Labels: random, veronica mars
after four days of living in a cave, living off melting candles, emergency lights, cellphones with low batt and hot drinking water, i'm back in civilization. i'm just thankful for the fact that i can turn on this computer, enjoy the cool breeze coming from the airconditioner and be connected to the world wide web once again. darn "milenyo" (ang jolog naman ng pangalan ng bagyo) causing power outage. our house is one of the last ones to have its electricity restored. actually, almost all the streets in north fariview have electricity already. the cutoff starts from our house and extends to the rest of the street. but now i'm happy we have it again. as i speak, i think there are still a lot of areas that don't have electricity. i don't think meralco was prepared for this kind of calamity. in fact, i don't think the city was prepared for this kind of calamity. this is the first time i've seen so many uprooted trees (and really big ones at that) and fallen billboards. there was this huge billboard next to a flyover in edsa that toppled down. it was so misshapen that it looked like it was crushed by a really large metal hand. even the light and electric posts were not spared from the typhoon. they have literally been bent and folded like paper. last thursday, i even had the guts to go to shangri-la in the morning, thinking the weather wouldn't be that bad. i also took judicial notice of pag-asa's tendency to make wrong weather forecasts 70% of the time. i was so wrong. mama even asked me to go to greenhills to buy yet another fake lacoste shirt. hehe. i was protesting at first, but i felt guilty afterwards so i went there and bought it. i was so scared though, since the winds were getting stronger they were blowing away some of the merchandise. hehe. anyway, manong drove me home, and we got to have a first hand view on how the typhoon developed. we had to detour somewhere in new manila because of a fallen tree, leaving only one lane open. the pink "metro-gwapo" signs by bayani f. along commonwealth all fell down. posters/ads were getting blown one by one. i managed to get home in one piece though. we stayed at my sister's house across the street after a lunch of pizza hut bbq ribs (poor delivery guy), watching the branches falling and the kitchen door moving back and forth incessantly. papa was still out, probably playing golf or something (with that weather??).
not that eventful, but stressful, yes. crammed studied for the remlaw midterms. 'had a lot of things going on in my mind about pressure and expectations again that i tried to avoid my dad the whole week at all costs. psycho client paid me a visit. 'had the remlaw midterms, 'felt bad about it afterwards. i felt my performance was not commensurate with my study time. unpleasant, fortuitous events kept on popping up. 'been more absent minded and mentally blocked than usual. (eg, once, i left my ROC codal right after i left the house and 'had to retrieve it; left an important book i was supposed to study at home and realized it when i got to cbtl, 'thought my wallet got lost somewhere, i looked for it all over only to find it somewhere in the car; 'lost a car number; hit the crv [ssh they haven't noticed the deep dent scratch yet]). basta, there was just something terribly wrong with the past week that whenever something bad came my way it didn't surprise/shock me anymore. plus the fact that i've been sooo unmotivated to do things lately. gosh. 4th year, and STILL not used to law school. and OLA is an aggravating circumstance. 'feels comforting to know i'm in good company.
but i guess i should be thankful that the week ended well. i watched Click last friday (with mark, joy and mitch), which reminds me of "the family man" (starring nicolas cage and tea leoni). and then last saturday, mark and i had dinner at this fancy french resto - je suis gourmand. we were supposed to have dinner with the harkadah, but pat (nahanap ka na rin namin sa wakas! hehe) had it moved because she still had the flu. mark and i were thinking of an alternative plan, so he suggested we go to the gym at the fort and then eat at the aforesaid fancy resto. i was initially thinking if we should eat there some other time, like on a special occasion, but then again, why not eat there now? and so he called the resto and had a table reserved for us. it was one of those places where they could reasonably impose a dress code, but thank God they didn't. i went there straight from school, and i only had my usual casual top, jeans and flip flops. anyhoo, dinner was great, the place was really nice and cozy. i loved the onion tart salad (so far those are the only words i could remember from the menu hehe) we had for appetizer. 'had a nice talk with mark, although i had to consciously tone down my voice several times because it was quiet in the establishment. we wanted to check out the place a bit, under the pretense of "looking for the restroom", but i ended up really going to the restroom.
and just when i thought the week's trail of misfortunes was over, i locked myself in the restroom.
after i was done washing my hands, i tried to open the door and realized i couldn't open the lock. it was a big, strange, metal lock, and the knob was hard to turn. i was beginning to get worried already, and it reminded me of an incident my sister had in some fitting room in glorietta where they even had to unscrew the whole door just so she could get out. the thought of causing a commotion bothered me more than the possibility of losing oxygen/suffocation. on the brink of desperation, i calmly picked up my cellphone, thought of texting mark, but decided to call him (he might think i'm pulling a joke if i text him hehe). i could almost see his furrowed eyebrows when he answered the call with a surprised, "hello?". and then i sheepishly told him, "puwede mo bang tanungin sa waiter pano buksan yung lock?". a few seconds later, i could hear a commotion on the other side of the door. "nalock daw eh" "hindi mabuksan" "ma'am, hindi niyo ba talaga kayang buksan yung lock?" the waitress said. (gosh, if i can, would i be shedding all my pride and calling my boyfriend through my cell asking for help?) good thing they had a key, but despite that, they still had a hard time opening the door. when they finally had it opened, i was smiling like an idiot as i got ouf of the room. there were 4 waiters standing outside, and i was just thankful that they were able to get the door open without breaking down the whole door. i was smiling out of relief, but i think it was mostly out of shame. haha. it was one of those times when i just wanted to bang my head on the wall (can you say "dobbie?"). and it didn't help that it was such a formal, posh resto (but then again, if that happened in any other resto, i would've felt just as embarrassed). haay hooray for stupidity. 'saw mark looking all worried by the table, but suddenly smiled when he saw me with my stupid grin. anyway, we had a few laughs out of it afterwards, together with mark's "dibale, love pa rin kita" assurances. aba dapat lang noh. haha jk. i would perfectly understand if you don't. hehe.=P first, the fork incident [which i would rather not discuss here hehe], now this. hay. and no, i didn't pursue a torts case. (which reminds me, i don't have a grade in that subject yet. and i took it in 2004..)
like i said, crazy. =P
Labels: law school, mark, random
and for that, i am going to have a shirt made with the words, "i *love* OLA" printed on it. heehee. kidding.
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good things for the past weeks:
1.) we are watching INXS live!!! 'can't wait till aug. 15! who cares if i have remlaw on the same night??!! we'll go late, maybe miss mig ayesa's act (i really don't care). =D
2.) a successful Turning Point headed by our growth group two fridays ago. i didn't do anything at all, actually. except where pink. heehee.
3.) last sunday's dinner, which strangely reminds me of "meet the parents". actually, "meet the fockers" would probably be more appropriate. haha. and then my sister reminded me of the aga-aiko movie "may minamahal", which, thinking about it, is also apt. jolog talaga ng kapatid ko. hahaha. the dinner was fun. even if there were times when i just wanted to be swallowed by a black hole thanks to my parents. haha.
4.) last week, i really felt protected and cared for by my only brother, who's in the states right now. hehe. it's been a long time since he left the country, and he left while i was still fresh from high school, so we didn't really get to talk about serious stuff much. wala lang, last week i just felt that even if he's miles away, i can count on him to stand up for me. =)
Labels: law school, mark, random, rant
law school sucked the life out of my saturdays
i die every week, more specifically every saturday, from 9-5 pm. i don't know what possessed me to take up two 3-hour saturday classes - two extremely boring and suicidal classes at that, tax and banking. not good for someone with a 5-minute-short attention span. yesterday in banking, i'm ashamed to say, i had my first bad recit for the year. apart from the fact that i completely didn't have a clue what the answer was [i was expecting to be called for something else], my brain just refused to cooperate 1 hour into the subject. maybe if i was paying attention to what the teacher was saying or at least was following the outline, i would've squeezed out an answer from my system. but trying to stay awake was a struggle, much more thinking. after i was asked to sit down, i didn't even feel embarrassed as i normally would. i even felt relieved that i was immune from recit for the rest of the period. i just desperately wanted the class to end. at one point during the three hour period, i could hear nico asking me something about the lecture, stopped in midsentence, and then went, "ay sorry, nakakatulog ka na pala." hahaha. gawd now that was embarrassing. but i think nico's used to my periodical bursts of abnormality, especially when confronted with mental torture.
having dinner with mark and attending quest [after a looong time] became much more rewarding after the long day. =)
on OLA..
thank God i didn't have a hearing the whole week last week.
top 5 reasons why i *loooove* OLA
The Loyalist
The committed, security-oriented type. Sixes are reliable, hard-working, responsible, and trustworthy. Excellent "troubleshooters," they foresee problems and foster cooperation, but can also become defensive, evasive, and anxious—running on stress while complaining about it. They can be cautious and indecisive, but also reactive, defiant and rebellious. They typically have problems with self-doubt and suspicion. At their Best: internally stable and self-reliant, courageously championing themselves and others.
(emphasis supplied. hehe)
yup, right on the dot. =D
you tube
i only discovered youtube.com last summer, in the states. 'good site to explore when you want to kill time or just want to have a few laughs with your cousins. hehe. just now, i watched the popular"keys me" video. haha. ang kulit! this is something i'm sure jonel would love. haha.
bubbles the dog
hehe. bubbles' pasalubong from the states. nagpictorial nanaman ang tamad kong aso. 
Labels: cuteness, law school, mark, random
you know what's better than listening to that song? listening to that song when it's actually SUMMER. i know, i'm hearing *gasp* may pasok ka pa? yes, i still have the OLA seminar this week AND the take home exam to be submitted on sat. at least our civpro teacher finally agreed to having a take home exam, that's a few more terms to unload from my brain.
ang tagaaaaaaal ng summer. the smb "sarap magbabad ads" and the huge Coke billboards on edsa with the sign "buksan ang summer" are making the anticipation a lot worse. i'm also feeling pretty stagnant lately. after the tax 2 exam, i completely zoned out. my brain refused to cooperate, and so i was forced to stay at home for the past few days, listening to my nieces enjoying their break while watching nickelodeon, the disney channel, cartoon dvds. thanks to that, i'm now familiar with "drake and josh" and "naturally sadie". and right now we're watching spongebob the movie for the nth time. [ i'm a goofy goober! yeah! ]
yesterday was no better. the entire day has been so stressful in every aspect - mentally, emotionally, physically. hay. i feel so bad about certain things, from the tax 2 finals to certain aspects of my personal life. ah basta..
so anyway, here's a rough list of things i'm doing this summer [ hehe OC ]:
i think i'll spend this beautiful summer day studying. :P
bianca's birthday / auntie abbe's despedida
last night, we ate at superbowl to celebrate biancita maldita [ hehe ] 's 8th birthday, which also served as auntie abbe, kaye and lyka's despedida dinner. they're leaving on friday to migrate to the US for good. some other relatives / friends are leaving the country in the near future also. yes, everyone's leaving the philippines. it's a fact of life. it's sad that moving out is always an option to everyone living in this country. i hope i'll live to see the day when the philippines can be considered as the "greener pasture".
anyhoo, finals start next week. i should be panicking, really, especially with the tax and civpro finals. i HATE tax. i HATE vat. paying for the 12% vat has eaten up most of my allowance [ especially since i spend my allowance mostly for food ]. and we even have to study the nitty gritty of the vat law. or laws. with all the amendments, supplements, implementing rules. arghhh. i still don't feel as stressed as i ought to be though, which is a good thing. thank God for double vanilla tea latte from coffee been and mcdonald's crispy chicken rice burger [ which i've been subsisting for the past weeks ]that keep me sane.
if i had all the money in the world [ or at least enough to keep me alive and to pay for all my shopping expenses ], i would move out of the house and live on my own. don't get me wrong, i love my family and all, but sometimes i can just do without all the nagging and the people getting stressed out around the household and the noisy kids impatiently waiting for their turn to use the computer. shutting myself from the entire world inside my room can only do so much, and irritants still find their way to annoy me. it doesn't also help that my house is located up there in the boondocks. traffic takes up a lot of time, especially during rush hours. so lately i've actually been spending more time outside than here [ which explains why my savings balance is always 0 at the end of the week ]. oh well.
today was a busy day, the highlight [ highlight?? ] of which was the locgov finals. haaaay. i know it's all over and i can't do anything about it, and i already lifted it up to God because it's really beyond my control right now, but i just can't get the thought that i might repeat the subject out of my head. the exam was terrible. it was a simple true/false exam, but each question was tricky and can be argued either way. plus, there were just a few items so it would be difficult to get a passing mark of 60% [ at least for me ].
oh well. that's that.
in other news, last night was jonel's [ drumroll ] 25th birthday dinner. [ for some reason, i wasn't exactly as pressured as i should be about the locgov finals that i still found time last night to drop by jonel's house ] one of the constant things in my life since first year college is jonel's annual birthday dinner, and i'm proud to say i've never missed a single one. o diba. hehe. i didn't actually know that the rest of the harkadah was coming, i decided to go with joy in any case. but i was glad when i found out they're going. i haven't seen them since christmas season. and i also felt that i needed the company, especially since i've been feeling too confined in my own little space lately.
take note, everyone [ well almost ]'s wearing white, as requested by the celebrant. hehe. the food was great, and i ate a lot as always.
another reason to smile about: i already got my starbucks planner! [ like i don't have enough hardbound books to carry around already ] thanks weki! i already missed a month but who cares.. i was all excited to write and post whatever on the planner, but when i opened it, it looked so beautiful that i didn't want to desecrate it with my lousy doodles.
well, 'felt like camwhoring, so here are some pics from this morning's dawn watch and the *ehe* pre and post-locgov exam. i've always had this habit of taking as much pictures as i can; somehow i feel that when there's absence of proof of pics/other form of documentation, it's like the event never happened at all. [ because of which, i've always kept this song line in mind - from john mayer's song, 3x5: "today I finally overcame tryin' to fit the world inside a picture frame. i've loved that song since i first heard it years ago. ]
dawn watch
this is my 3rd consecutive week of joining dawn watch. i was apprehensive about going today, especially since we have the locgov finals and i needed time to study. but at 5 am i was already up. i couldn't go back to sleep even if i tried to, which is pretty unlikely, since the night before i arrived late, leaving me with only 4 hours of sleep. and i never resort to 4 hours of sleep unless extreme circumstances compel me to. and i still have enough energy to keep me awake till this hour. yes, only divine intervention can keep me awake this long. hehe. but i'm glad that i attend dawn watch constantly; i need to be reminded of God's presence in my life in the middle of the week. it's just good to start the day with a fresh perspective, without feeling listless and burdened about law school life. and it's nice to have an LSS of inspiring songs from praise and worship the whole day/week [ that surely beats having to involuntarily hear sam milby's 'close to you' over and over in my brain ]
[ plug na rin. hehe ] there's a dawn watch/prayer meeting at 6 am to around 7:30 at the sunken garden stage. open to UP students/ alumni or whoever. drop by if you can :D
pre/post-locgov pics
before the exam:
we drowned our sorrows in sisig oil at congo grille after the exam. and then we ate at half moon. 'loved the white chocolate bibingcrisp.
ja'pee, jenn, oggs, grace
the aftermath of locgov. hehe. oggs trying to balance a spoon on his nose
marie and nico
and the photo of the day.. the pinoy big brother house! hahaha. at that time, i, being the designated driver, was inside the car with oggs and nico disowning our blockmates, since there was no parking space.
more pics here.
Labels: birthday, church, harkadah, kajologan, law school, random
since my life has been pretty uneventful lately, i'll be posting nothing but incoherent ramblings.
the past week was ok. i was proud that last wednesday i was able to attend the 6 am prayer meeting, attend class, study a bit after, go to the gym for aero at 4:30 and then play disc at 8 pm. i pushed myself to the limit and felt proud that i did so. normally, i would be feeling sleepy come lunch time, but i realized that only happened before because i was forced to study. i didn't know i still had the capacity to run around the field at 10 in the evening. i guess if you really like what you're doing you'll have enough energy to keep you up and about, no matter how physically strenuous it is.
i wasn't really supposed to go to the ultimate disc beginners' night. i planned to go with joan, but she backed out a few hours before, so i was seriously considering not to go because i didn't know anyone there. i decided to go anyway, and i was glad i did, since i was able to play and got to meet new people. i even saw familiar faces, and i saw a friend i met before in san lo beginners' night [ we started playing around the same time, but she joined a team and she's really good now. i'm so envious. hehe. and i'm still a perpetual beginner. pfft :P ]. i hope i could go back next week.
also, last thursday, we had dinner at a veneto libis, the first P3,000 + 3 bottles of wine sponsored by our tax 2 prof. hehe. this is the second time any of our profs treated us for dinner, which is good. i just hope this isn't an advanced atonement for upcoming killer exams. and before that, i was called for recit in his class. it didn't turn out bad, thank God, considering i didn't study much for it the night before. well, it's ok except for the part where he made me stay in front of the whole class and i was standing there for a good 10 minutes [ or more? ]. i tried to escape, but to no avail. agh. i still felt like a complete idiot even if i didn't really say anything stupid.
my life has actually been a roller coaster lately - i've been getting my share of ups [ new friends, new interests, good food, good time with friends ] and downs [ irritating people, irritating situations, stupid self, bad recits, feelings of fat-ness and being unglamorous. i need exercise, diet and diamond peel!! ], and i'm expecting more to come for the next days. we're having the locgov finals on wednesday, the singapore trip this weekend, single-awareness day next week, concurrent with the civpro midterms. the locgiv finals is the make or break exam for me *cringe*. i really need all the prayers i can get. and for some strange reason, i don't have the motivation to study for it.. i don't feel pressured to study when i should be pushing the panic button by now since i'm not even done with half of it. haaaay. re. love month, media is once again infested with cheezy ads. close-up sure has a way to make singles feel utterly bitter. haha. and there are also tons of concerts and other events this weekend aside from the annual lovapalooza. i'm glad that i'll be out of the country on valentine's weekend.
owayt. need to go to study now.
Labels: law school, random
this week was better than last week, and maybe more productive. i was greeted with bad news last monday though, which is bothering me until now but not as much as i did that day.
bad things.
re. the bad news. i didn't get the desired grade for recit in locgov. apparently, he gave me a pretty low grade for an objectively fairly decent recit, which i honestly thought, modesty aside, merited a grade higher than 2 or at least 2 [ which is a pretty high grade, considering my standard recits before ]. argh. so if i'm going to take the extremely difficult exam, i am at risk of failing the subject. i've been thinking about dropping the subject again, but right now i'm more inclined not to after thinking it over several times.
irritability.i don't know why, but i seem to get so irritated with the littlest things. like getting LSS every time i hear sam milby's close up song [ i know there's a mob of sam milby fans out there, please don't attack me ], feeling law students [ hello, pare-pareho lang tayo.. ], people who don't shut up when you don't really care about what they're saying, chauvinistic wrestling shows on jack tv.. basta, lahat.. wala lang.
good things.
we're done with locgov already [ our prof's been itching to leave the country since the sem started ], which means, i don't have classes anymore every friday and monday. yay! which also means i can go with my mom and sister to singapore from feb. 10-12. [ never mind the fact that by that time, i'm probably worrying about the results of the locgov finals ] my sister's going there with some colleagues, and my mom and i are just tagging along. i'm really glad we have this opportunity, because my unadventurous family would never go someplace just to tour around, there always has to be a reason - a business trip, relatives.. when i grow up [ hehe ] i will save up enough money so i could visit places in the philippines i have never been to before, like sagada and most of the south areas. and also explore europe and asia.
last wednesday, i got to attend the dawn watch/prayer meeting [ at long last ]. yes, i was able to wake up at 4:30 in the morning and arrive at UP at 6 am. i've been invited to join since last year [ december ], but i always had reasons not to go [ school, mostly ]. when i arrived at sunken, it was so dark and it was even raining outside, so i was a bit apprehensive to get out of the car. but i had no place else to go anyway that early in the morning, so i proceeded to the sunken garden stage. i didn't know much from the group, and it also didn't help that most of them are in college [ which made me feel so old all over again ]. but i'm glad i attended, 'met new people, 'talked with the older ones. somehow, it clarified things a bit for me. it was actually then that i thought about my stand on whether or not to drop locgov. i just realized that problems are there to keep me strong and make me a better person, and if i drop the subject [ this would be my second one at that ], i will be taking the easier way out and i don't think i will learn anything from it. of course, there's no assurance that retaking the whole course would be a lot easier, but i think maybe it's time i just study this thing and get it over with. i'll just do my best. if i pass, well and good. if i don't, at least i tried my best.
veronica mars episode 11. after almost a month without the show, leaving me clueless on what happened to meg's baby [ hehe ], i finally got to download the latest episode today. 'loved it. basta, ang galing. after every show, i always end up staring at the screen for several seconds while the credits are displaying because i'm just too awestruck. i'm not exaggerating. [ and you must think i'm such a freak now. hehe ]
the civpro group thing. [ haha ang nerd.. ] we have this project where we're all in little "firms", filing pleadings against each other. so i'm a free rider in the group because i have no idea what most of them are trying to discuss, but it was good working with other people in the block, and somehow i'm getting an inkling on what i'll be doing for the rest of my life. yes, deal with loads of stress.
romeo and juliet. my cousin kaye had an extra ticket, so i went with them to watch the play last night. i like how they made the whole set up contemporary. some of the characters were hilarious. i think the music was also great. and you gotta love the glamorous 80's costumes. skintight jeans, shiny fabric and such. haha. sir ron capinding was in the cast [ fyi, our instructor in acting class before ]. too bad we didn't get to see yanny as romeo though. grabe i can't believe i was in a play with these people when i was in first year high school. hahaha. that would've been a great opportunity, if only i could act..
i still wasn't able to play disc at the meralco beginners' night though, and that would be my goal for next week.
and in line with that, i realized the importance of breaking down goals into smaller ones. it makes things more doable. recently, i created a 43 things account. it's this site where you list down all the things you want to do or plan on doing. i know i haven't actually started on with some of the things i've listed, and some of them seem too far out to accomplish, but it's just nice to see them in one neat list, making them look more realistic and possible to accomplish.
ayun lang, i'll post again later. up dharma down album launch later. to my mommy in the class kris kringle last dec., i know that's what i asked for, hindi pa pala nalaunch and she tried looking for it. hehe.
Labels: church, law school, random, veronica mars
this is my ideal sched for today:
6 am: weekly dawn watch prayer meeting at UP
10 am: civpro class [ which i supposedly studied for so when i get called i can give a kick ass recit ]
2 pm: locgov class [ likewise ]
3-7 pm: study intensely for civpro
7:30 pm: play disc at meralco field
but of course, i didn't stick to my sched like an annoyingly organized person:
3 am: woke up to study for locgov
4:30: got tired and slept
8 am: woke up again; decided to cut civpro
9 am: studied for locgov while chatting with my siblings through webcam
2 pm: gave a crappy recit when i should be getting 1+ grades because i need to make up for my bad recits in the past if i want to pass the course
3-5: chismisan with daisy when i should be studying. hehe
6: ate dinner. decided not to play disc anymore
8: went home from eastwood, where we studied [ not ]
9:42 pm: watching american idol and not doing anything productive
oh well. there's always next week. :P
Labels: law school, random
a few days after our new year celebration, i suddenly came across a startling realization: technically, i'll be taking the bar exams next year. it is, however, conditional, and will only occur in the event that i graduate. it's practically going through mental and psychological suicide. just thinking about it right now scares me. and i'm not just worried right now because of the exam itself; it's about growing up, moving on, starting a career. you get the picture. one of these days, i need to grow up. i would need to start taking school seriously and realize that this is the only road i'm taking, this is the only option i have and i screw up on this i'll be back to square one. i would have to stop relying on my parents' money/credit card [ which i minimized using recently because of an article i read about shopaholicism ] for my impulsive shopping sprees. i would need to work, learn to cook and pay my own cell phone bills. so far, the only (in)substantial things i've done are: (1) i've started buying clothes for OLA [ office of legal aid ] duty and (2) i've named my possible children [ violet, stellar and margaux. i don't have names for boys yet. :P ] and i may even have to face the fact that i would need to take OLA this summer so i would have a lighter load come first sem 4th year [ if i get to 4th year ], and i won't have any more summers ever.
hay. i hate pressure.
Labels: bar, law school, random
i was finally able to watch the "tensionado" video by soapdish, which was partly shot at the condo. wala lang. bianca found the fight scenes and the bloodshed funny.. [ bianca, the same kid who, upon reaching the tender age of 3, asked her yaya, "pag-ibig? di ba bad yun?" ] there really is something wrong with kids nowadays..
better than limewire
i just recently discovered azureus, a program for downloading torrents. the tv shows are updated [ i already downloaded the latest episodes of veronica mars and will and grace! yay! ], and the transfer is a lot faster. for a 40 minute episode of veronica mars i think it only took 4 hours to download. in limewire i usually leave the computer on overnight to download an episode. and it even depends on the availability of other users. but i still use limewire for mp3s.
in re. al's comment
al! i was just browsing through my old entries when i came across your comment. anyway, two of the things you mentioned in your comment are moot and academic [ btw, that entry was written last year pa ]. about ma'm a.'s class, [ di ko na nilagay yung whole name, lumalabas pala pag sinearch!] that didn't end well bec. i was one of the students who dropped. i'm taking civpro again now but under ma'm rowie. good luck with civpro! wag niyo akong tularan. haha. yung tips, marami kami nyan. hehe.
[ i'm glad that people end up in my blog by searching substantial info. i hate it when i check the stats and see that most of the people who reach my blog are looking for a n g el l o c s i n nude pics ( i intentionally broke the letters ). :P ano buh.. ]
Labels: law school, random
thanks to ETC and star world, i've rekindled my relationship with the tv. so what if all i watch these days are reality tv shows [ except for veronica mars ]? i get to watch the better ones though [ no "who wants to marry my dad" or "big brother" or "blind date" or other gravely unethical and plainly stupid shows. no offense to those who follow the aforementioned shows religiously. ].
rock star inxs
because of this show, i now have a new person to add to my growing list of celebrity crushes:
[ but first, the growing list of celebrity crushes:
first two pics: jakob dylan of the wallflowers. i liked him so much when i was 14 that i almost cried when the maid used my rolling stone copy with his face on the cover as a placemat. heehee psycho. i couldn't decide which of the two pics to upload, so i posted both.
3: trent from daria, an mtv cartoon series sometime in the late 90's. hehehe.
4: bernard palanca of d'hunks. hwaha.
5: chris cornell of soundgarden/audioslave
6: benjamin bratt.
hmm... now that i look at all the pics in one spread, they all look alike..]
j.d. fortune!
he's so good, 'reminds me of chris cornell a lot. too bad he has a low level of EQ. but i think he's acting a lot more humanely now. i really hope he wins, but even if he doesn't, i'm sure he'll have an equally good career on his own. galing talaga. how do you vote for this thing?? bukas na ang finale at hindi pa rin ako nakakaboto, ano bah.
queer eye for the straight guy, ambush makeover
i'm just attracted to those makeover shows lately. maybe there's an element of self-projection in that [ sana ako rin maging ganon hehe ]. of course like the rest of the population i want to be a better person, and watching these shows somehow gives me a glimmer of hope that things would get better even for the worst people. haha, drama. and i just appreciate gay humor. i love carson. hwehe.
veronica mars
am i the only person who watches this show? for those who don't know, it is aired every wednesday night, 8-9 pm on ETC. i know the lovers-turned-brother-and-sister story line is so old school, but i love this show nonetheless. think csi meets nancy drew. plus probably every teen show with biting wit you could think of. basta, i like it. which explains why i'm always home at 8 pm sharp every wednesday night.
and i just found out that kristen bell, the girl who plays veronica mars, is a 25 year old playing the role of a high school senior. 'sounds comforting that i'm not the only one acting like a 17-year old. hehe.
Labels: cuteness, random, veronica mars
i was on the verge of cursing pldt for letting me down when my internet account wouldn't connect since wednesday last week. 'turned out someone just accidentally unplugged some seemingly insignificant piece of contraption from the phone unit. now i can connect to the net again and i've never been happier. hehe.
the past week was quite eventful; at least more eventful than the usual state of things. that's why this entry is going to be pixel heavy [ sorry for that ]. anyway, the complete set of pictures are here.
the nego midterms
of course that tops my list for the most exciting events of the week. haha. and i would just shut up about the exam for fear of expulsion from the college [ my prof has a blog too and chances are, he knows i've linked his site. hehe ].
post-midterms binge
we ate at heaven and eggs for dinner. it was the first time in weeks all 8 of us went out together. we ate a lot, as always. good comfort food. we took a lot of pics because it took a long time before the food arrived.
3 hours of nego and 1.5 hours of tax -> bad combination.
thursday at dish
we went to the sigma rho/lsg event last thursday at dish, abs-cbn. none of my law school blockmates attempted to go [ except of course for oggs who sold us the tickets ], so i went with pat, joan and penny. we ate at cibo first, did some "star gazing" [ haha jologs talaga ] and since penny was there, we didn't go home disappointed. [ i always see actors/actresses whenever i'm with penny. hmm... ]. we watched some bands until our eyes gave out [ second hand smoke from yosi + aircon = strained watery eyes ]. we ate dessert afterwards at some nearby coffee shop.
friday in manila
i know i've grown tired of ms. freshman after two years, but that didn't stop me from watching "lady med", the ms. freshman counterpart for UP med students. [ yes, i chose to watch that over rockestra ] we were invited by vinci. unlike in UP law, they do the contest by batch, so the whole student body gets to participate, not just the freshmen. so there was literally a whole batallion of students cheering for every candidate. it has essentially the same concept, but for some reason, it was entirely different from the UP law set up - for one, their contestants are comparably less bastos [ i haven't decided yet if that's a good or bad thing hehe ]. and everyone was just enthusiastic, rooting for his/her candidate. it was like watching a uaap game, each batch made up [ or ripped off ] cheers, they were all waving their color coordinated banners/balloons. it was crazy. the contestant from vinci's batch [ batch 2008 ] won. it's the 3rd consecutive year that someone from their batch won first place.
and then we went on with our "manila tour" with vinci as the tour guide. i haven't been there for a long time [ last time was when we went to the senate, which wasn't really exciting, was it. and papa's induction ball ]. we were supposed to go to the bayview [?]promenade, the one near the future mall of asia [ which was really huge. it was the first time i've been to the construction site ], but we were only allowed to stay for a few minutes because it was already closed. we proceeded to blue wave, some eastwood-like place complete with the restaurants and a stage up front. we pigged out at icebergs, 'talked about life as always and then watched kitchie nadal in concert.
the soapdish mtv
i helped out a bit at the shoot for mtv of the new soapdish song, "tensionado" [ i swear, i can't get the song out of my head the whole day today. buti na lang i like the songs by soapdish, esp. the first single. i wouldn't want to know the aftermath if i was forced to help out in a salbakuta video ], directed by quark h., with dan and tetz. i mainly helped out neil as the p.a., so that makes me the p.a.a. [ production assistant assistant? ]. and they also used our condo as the setting for the second to the last scene. it was surreal having all the lights and a whole band playing inside the miniscule unit. we've always tried to stretch the limits of that condo eversince. the guard actually went upstairs twice, the first time when they told us not to loiter, use the units in the hall and leave our stuff lying on the floor, and the second time when they heard shouting/fighting and china crashing on the floor [ it was part of the fighting couple scene ]. exciting. bwehe.
i didn't realize it was a psycho-couple video until i saw the fake blood and the gory, bruise-effect make up. you wouldn't think it's something realistic, with the couple almost tearing each other to bits and then making up as if nothing happened in the end. the freaky thing is, i can relate with the insanity. "tensionado"'s definitely another song to add to my life soundtrack. hehe.
i was supposed to email this to fidel, but since i don't know his add., i just hope he finds his way to my blog
i just had to post this pic and let the whole world wide web know: i can't believe that ugly painting behind soapdish is getting more tv exposure than i am. hehehe. gawd. we always referred to it as "george of the jungle" [ and by that i'm referring to some person back in college. heehee i'm so eval. ]
Labels: harkadah, law school, random, video
i know, i don't have that much "luck" to start with [ all my college friends could attest to that ], but for the past week, i've been having a series of circumstances worthy enough to be called "luck". cases in point: 1.) i was called in two subjects for cases that i've read or at least know enough to recite properly, without the professor, sensing my fear, trying to intimidate me with his demeaning comments. 2.) i was supposed to skip art class yesterday since i didn't have time to study for PIL, and i found out the night before that it was cancelled 3.) i was craving for breaded chicken the other day, and i came home, unsuspecting that there is such a dish on our dinner plate 4.) i witnessed a display of karmic justice which i wouldn't dare disclose online [ bwaha ]. plus, some other good things that have happened that do not really fall under the lucky category, but are nice nonetheless. i know these are shallow things, but it's really nice for things to fall in the right place every once in a while. in my life, these instances rarely happen, so every time they do, well, thank god.
but of course, all good things come to an end. i pretty much enjoyed the whiff of good luck though [ if only there is such a thing as felix felicis ]. earlier today, i was called for IPL, which i haven't studied in a while [ it was assigned weeks ago, and i never reviewed it ]. i'm guessing i got a low grade, based on my teacher's reactions and the moments of awkward silence right after she gives a question. and then, during lunch, i parked my car on the island in katipunan while we ate at world chicken. as soon as we got out, some mmda person placed a ticket on the windshield since we were 'illegally parked'. [ damn you stupid bisayan manong who made it appear that it's ok to park there. he claimed he told me not to park on the island, but i swear, he never did, he even assisted us as we were going to the resto. and i couldn't really understand his explanation 'cause he was speaking in bisaya ]. i couldn't run after the mmda person and try to explain to him that i was parked there because of someone else's idiotic act, because my license is expired. he might just ask for it, and didn't want to risk it. GRR. now i have to pay for P200 at the bank. on the bright side, at least they didn't ask for my license. that would've put me in greater trouble.
lastly, it took me such a long time to connect the dsl. this is the first time it happened, though. i even thought, given the trail of bad luck [ plus the principle that "all things happen in threes" ], that the internet would be out for sometime and we would need to have connection repaired. good thing it's working now.
just to make me feel better awhile ago, i skipped succession [ heehee ] with jen, chi and oggs to watch bewitched at eastwood. just for the record, that was my second cut this sem ever, and i don't think i would have the guts to cut again. i feel too guilty for not studying in most of my subjects. and we have a midterm exam next week, so i really need to take things seriously this time. :P
Labels: law school, random, rant
i realized it doesn't really take much to make me happy..
a good playlist and a dsl connection will do. as you might guess, i'm accessing the internet now through a pldt dsl server, which was installed a few hours ago. woohoo! i know most of you probably have had broadband connection since whenever, but this is a leap for this stone age computer. of course the first thing i did after i connected to the internet was to open the limewire program and stare in awe as the computer downloads almost 50 kb of mp3 music per second. i know this will derail me more from my studies, but then again what doesn't? hehe. joke.
well, speaking of studying, i don't think any amount of studying would improve my recitations ever, [ i don't really speak well in public, for one ] especially when the professors seem to blame me for every bad supreme court decision/law. [ no sir, i did not pen that decision. :p ] i didn't even notice there was something wrong with them in the first place. i guess i'm just not programmed to question what the authorities say; i pretty much take in everything and believe in it. i just don't know how to think out of the box.
ANYWAY..
more weird referring search words through which people find my site:
[ sorry for the short, brainless entries lately. hehe. ]
Labels: random
i don't know if i should be happy or worried about our professors' class cancellations.
since the sem started, a week has never passed without us getting at least one free cut. just this week, we had no classes last monday because of the sona, a free cut in negotiable instruments yesterday, a free cut in intellectual property today, and i just learned from my blockmates that we won't be having classes tomorrow and saturday because our teachers said so.
now i have too much time on my hands [ which i know i should be utilizing to study and finish digests ], i don't know what to do with it.. but what i'm more bothered about is that i'm sure we would be having make-up classes for every missed class, and that means more hell weeks to come. worse, our professors might leave us to just study the lessons ourselves. good luck na lang sa'min sa bar exam..
Labels: law school, random
today's the SONA; and SONA = public holiday. i can't get out of the house because to get to anywhere i would inevitably pass by the sandiganbayan where all the action is [ unless i decide to go to sm fairview or robinson's novaliches ] and maybe get stoned to death or stepped on by angry rallyists in the process. point: i'm stuck here at home the whole day. and since i have nothing better to do [ i'll try to finish all my backlog this afternoon but that's wishful thinking ], i'm just going to post this senseless entry.
i recently installed a site meter on my blog, which could track how people get to my site. and these are the most unexpected referring sites i've found so far:
oh well.
it has been almost a month since my last entry. for the past month, i've been going to the gym regularly [ still no visible results yet though :P ], i returned to art class, we went to fete de la musique last june 18, pat came home from the states for vacation. apart from those little perks, i'm still caught up in the usual humdrum state of things. i hate mediocrity.
my life is just so uninteresting right now. i know i should be contented with what i have, especially since nothing extremely bad is happening [ my being completely behind in my bills and notes and taxation subjects does not count ]. i just wish something fun and exciting would come my way, like a digital SLR or a 15-pound weight loss or something. damn quarter-life crisis.
fete de la musique was held again in el pueblo, ortigas. i didn't have the best time of my life, but at least there were NO RAINS. i actually arrived there at around 4:30 with cesar. given my eternal bad luck, i was anticipating downpour that evening, and just in case it does rain, at least i have watched a few bands already. there weren't much people when we arrived, but there were less [ sorry for the politically incorrect, demeaning term ] jologs. it was actually nice looking at all the girls and boys with their spunky rocker outfits. it was like browsing through a japanese fashion magazine. later on that evening, jologs hoarded the whole place, clad in black, waving the banners of their "rakizta" groups in the air while throwing mineral water bottles at people. ARGH. the concert at the rock stage was closed for an hour or so because of the uncontrollable crowd. at least we were able to watch ciudad, cynthia alexander, dicta license, hairy dawgs, shiela and the insects, and a good band from cebu i forgot the name of. because they closed down the rock stage, neil, wex, mike and i ate at chateau, the only restaurant in el pueblo that had available seats [ maybe because the prices were unreasonably high ]. we later on moved to the alternative stage where we were forced to watch hale. personally, i don't like hale because all their songs sound alike and i don't think i'll ever be in the mood for cheezy emo songs. [ sorry if you like hale, you can kill me later. hehe ] anyway, i stuck around since i thought juan pablo dream was playing after hale, but they changed the sked and another band i didn't like came up front. so we decided to leave. i know i should've stayed [ they reopened the rock stage ] para naman sulit, but i was getting sleepy and tired already [ at 10:30 in the evening :P ].
i'm currently enjoying our unexpected three day weekend. 'explains why i was able to blog in the first place. but then i have to study. or at least fix my unorganized desk with all the scattered readings.
it's my sister lani's [ gasp ] 37th birthday today. she's so old. hehehe.
EDM challenge: tool
Labels: artsy fartsy, birthday, random
it's raining outside. just the perfect sign to prove that summer is indeed coming to an end. the heat hasn't subsided though; everyone is complaining about the intolerable weather. i'm not exaggerating - you couldn't last for more than 10 seconds away from the electric fan. there were times when, at the middle of the night, i would wake up dripping in sweat that i have to change my shirt. and people are more prone to sickness because it's so hot inside and when you go inside the car/the mall/other establishments, the aircon is on maximum. anyway, i'm not complaining as long as i have an electric fan by my side.
reunion..
last saturday night [ after around 5 hours or more of having my hair relaxed at the salon. heehee vanity ], we had a mini-mongoloid society high school reunion with 3 of my high school friends (nirvana, erika and joey) at katips. i realized that i'm not the only homegirl after all - apparently, they all also go straight home right after work. well, i wasn't much of a gimmick girl back in high school or college anyway, but i'm more lazy to go out now. except for food trips and gigs every now and then. everytime i read the magazines, i just wrinkle my forehead while thinking, "where the hell is this 'embassy' or 'absinth' or whatever gimmick place chuva with loud music and supposedly popular people blah blah?"
anyway, regarding our little reunion, grabe i don't think the night was enough to relive all our high school memories. we tell almost the same stories every time, but we still laugh over them just the same. besides, we only meet up around once a year, so we pretty much forget about those stories the rest of the year. but i'm glad we're all still the same insane people. it also became my birthday dinner. i was also supposed to treat the harkadah out for dinner last friday, but most of us couldn't make it so i just cancelled it. i don't know if i'm still pushing through with it though.
yesterday was mother's day, but i didn't spend it much with my mom, who spent the whole day at home with a swollen gum. we had to go to church in the morning, we resumed the M12 prayer group in the afternoon, 'had lunch at galle, did a little shopping (may i emphasize little because i have already exceeded my credit card limit and i don't have much cash. darn.), got chased by the police in edsa and ate dinner at max's with neil's family.
oh yes i had another minor conflict with the law again yesterday. right after i dropped neil at their place, i was making a right turn to quezon ave. from edsa. i was just thinking about what my dad told me the other day regarding people posing as policemen and taking advantage of ladies driving alone when two MMDA persons suddenly cut in front of me and instructed me to stop the car. i panicked, and i knew i didn't violate any particular law (i wasn't on the phone or anything) so i stepped on the gas and planned on outrunning the policemen. the stop light was red, so i made a u-turn back to edsa. they were still trailing behind me, pointing at me and telling me to stop when i almost hit a jeepney. i was swerving like mad trying to avoid them. i made another u-turn, and i think they were stuck there somewhere in the intersection traffic while i was driving in edsa, going to cubao. i decided to call neil and pick him up, at least if i get to talk to the police i would have some guy with me. so i made a u-turn and went back to neil's place, which was also where i left the police, and then we talked to them. 'turned out the ford didn't have a registration sticker yet (argh of course no one told me at home about it). one of the MMDA people was so mad that i had them chase me around edsa and that they almost hit a car because of it and i decently talked to him by shouting they didn't look trustworthy at all. he, neil and i were just shouting for a good 10 seconds until i decided to call up my mom and told her about the problem. she talked to the other MMDA person who was comparably nicer than the other one. ma explained that the car was already registered but she wasn't able to get the sticker. good thing the MMDA believed her. gawd it was really so scary. neil even told them that my dad's a lawyer, i even had to say that i was a lawyer (bwahahaha yes i did that with a straight face. although i knew it wasn't the least bit believable), and my mom also said she was a lawyer (hehe halata ng hindi totoo lahat). well, i know i was the one at fault (despite that, we never admitted it and kept on making counterarguments hehe) but i think i do have a point in telling them that i had good reason not to stop, given all the horror stories i've been hearing and the past experiences i've had with MMDA people at UP. hayyy.. afterwards we just laughed about it. i must've looked like a real criminal during the police chase. hehe.
i was cleaning my inbox, when i came across this particular message i haven't read yet. ARGH. it just irked me so much. i know i was just complaining about the weather and the irritating policemen in this country, but most of the points in this message are uncalled for. some of them may be true, but most of the statements are sweeping generalizations. i don't know who wrote it, but whoever he/she is doesn't know much about the philippines at all. i think it was signed by someone who lives in the states now though. feeling niya siguro just because he/she is in the states now he/she is all that and he/she is sooo better of than the rest of us. yeah right. even if the situation in this country is depressing, there are a lot of talented and intelligent people in this country who are so full of potential that can and will be realized. and what the hell is up with "the philippines is..where University of the Philippines is where all the weird people go. Ateneo is where all the nerds go." ano ba, the grammar, for one, doesn't make any sense, and secondly, UP and ateneo are the top schools in the country and he/she has no right insulting the people in it. ano, wala na ba siyang maisip para mapuno yung 50 items kaya kung ano ano na lang pinaglalagay niya na wala namang katuturan? the entire message isn't even a joke at all, it's so downgrading. it's so poorly written and the author had no taste with his choice of words.
ThE PhiLiPPiNeS iS.....
50. where the most happening places is not where the party is. Instead it's where the gang wars happen, where women strip and where the people overthrow a president.
49. where even doctors, lawyers and engineers are unemployed.
48. where everyone has his personal ghost story.
47. where mountains like Makiling and Banahaw are considered as holy places.
46. where everything can be forged.
45. where the school is considered the second home and the mall considered as third.
44. where Starbucks coffee is more expensive than gas.
43. where every street has a basketball court and every town only has one public school.
42. where all kinds of animals are edible.
41. where people speak all kinds of languages, and still call it Tagalog.
40. where students pay more money than they will earn afterwards.
39. where call center employees earn more money than teachers and nurses.
38. where driving 4kms can take as much as 4hours.
37. where flyovers bring you from the freeway to the side streets.
36. where the tourist spots is where Filipinos do not (or cannot) go.
35. where the personal computer is mainly used for games and Friendster.
34. where all 13 year olds are alcoholic.
33. where colonial mentality is dishonestly denied!
32. where 4am is not even considered bed time yet.
31. where people can pay to defy the law.
30. where everything is spoofed.
29. where even the poverty-stricken get to wear Ralph Lauren and Tommy Hilfiger!
28. where honking of car horns is a way of life.
27. where being called a bum is never offensive.
26. where flood waters take up more than 90 percent of the streets during the rainy season.
25. where everyone has a relative abroad who keeps them alive.
24. where crossing the street involves running for your dear life.
23. where wearing your national colors make you "baduy".
22. where billiards is a sport, and darts is a bar game.
21. where even the poverty-stricken have the latest cell phones. (gsm-galing sa magnanakaw)
20. where insurance does not work.
19. where water can only be classified as tap and dirty... clean water is for sale (35pesos/gallon).
18. where the church governs the people and where the government makes the people pray for miracles. (AMEN TO THAT!)
17. where University of the Philippines is where all the weird people go. Ateneo is where all the nerds go. La Salle is where all the Chinese go. College of Saint Benilde is where all the stupid Chinese go, and University of Asia and the Pacific is where all the irrelevantly rich people go.
16. where fastfood is a diet meal.
15. where traffic signs are merely suggestions not regulations.
14. where all the trees in the city are below 6 ft.
13. where being held up is normal. It happens to everyone.
12. where kids dream of becoming pilots, doctors and basketball players.
11. where rodents is a normal house pet.
10. where the definition of traffic is the 'non-movement' of vehicles.
9. where the fighter planes of the 1940's are used for military engagements, and the new fighter planes are displayed in museums.
8. where Nora Aunor is an acclaimed actress and Boy Abunda is the best talk show host.
7. where cigarettes and alcohol are a necessity, and where the lottery is a commodity.
6. where soap operas tell the realities of life and where the news provides the drama.
5. where actors make the rules and where polit icians provide the entertainment. (kung gusto mo mapikon, watch the news)
4. where finding a deer on the road will be a phenomenon. (may deer dito? seryoso kayo?)
3. where people can get away with stealing trillions of pesos, but not for a thousand.
2. where being an hour late is still considered as punctual. (grabe talaga 'to!)
1. where everyone wants to leave the country! (ang saya-saya!)
Why be a plain pandesal when you can be ensaymada espesyal? :-)
[ ano buhhh i hate the last line. ]
Labels: forwards, high school, pilipinas, random, rant
spell with flickr thing
nice, no?
just killing time until i study for the credit exams [ i'll be studying in a few minutes if uh, i don't fall asleep on my way to the study table ].
my brother called earlier and he ended our conversation with the words: "i'll see you next week!". somehow it still hasn't sunk to my brain that i'm going to the states next week, what with all the law concepts cluttering my little brain and all. but once in a while, airport scenes flash before my eyes, and i suddenly wonder what to wear on my way to the airport [ sorry sa kababawan hehe ] and realize that i should be packing my bags soon. i know this would sound stupid, but my main concern about leaving is that i hope i could find my plane to baltimore from san francisco and not get lost in the airport. US airports are all so big and intimidating that anyone [ especially me ] could get lost. since i'm travelling alone, i have no one to help/guide me or at least think with me where to go, what to do. and i feel that i lost all my common sense somewhere [ between "caveat emptor" and "credit transactions" ]..
Labels: law school, random
...do come my way sometimes
these are the top 5 things that made me smile for the past week.
my parents are home. my parents are finally back from the rotary event chu chu in the states. happiness! at last i don't have to eat all alone anymore during breakfast or worry about budgeting my limited cash. being home alone has its drawbacks - the silence and the unnecessary thoughts that creep through my mind are almost deafening i couldn't take it anymore. plus, i'm now richer by one new canon digicam [ the really small one ], two discs, a pair of old navy flip flops and a book on artists' journals [ most of the stuff were donated by my sister hehe ].
thanks to the concert too, i got a free copy of fish magazine, and i discovered the edge radio. la lang. nakaka-inspire tuloy magpakabait. [ i know i will get raised eyebrows with this line. hehe. ]
last saturday night, kris and i watched tanghalang ateneo's 3PO. i didn't exactly appreciate the play. too many songs, too many jokes. although there were a lot of hilarious lines. plus, there was also rhem in drag. hehe. i was tempted to post a candid picture we took of him, but i'm just too nice so i resisted. heehee. and he might kill me in case he comes across this site.
after the play, kris, neil and i were supposed to go to the last day of the UP fair but due to the looong line, we just opted to go to eastwood. we thought of going to makati to the admit one gig but it was too far, and it's getting late, so eastwood it was. we felt left out with all the high school people including the post prom people [ complete in their formal attires ]. we walked around the shops, 'saw joan and boyfriend, bought drinks [ just sodas ] and some food at the bowling center. we arrived fairview around 2 am [ ahh, the joys of being home alone. hehe ]
Labels: random
i just arrived from school. apparently, our 6-9 pm class was cancelled [ yay! ] so i have the whole night to myself. i'll be able to watch tanghalang ateneo's play, 3PO, probably go to the UP fair [ if it stops raining ] or go to the admit one gig at saguijo cafe [ i've never been there yet. and i really want to go to the "i love you store" located at the second floor of the same building ].
one good thing to be thankful today is the fact that i didn't study, yet i was spared from the wrath of recitation. i even had the time to eat lunch at satya's with neil when i haven't read the cases or the provisions on chattel mortgage for credit yet. hehe. at least i was full afterwards.
i wasn't able to study because i slept the whole night, i was online for hours checking out blogs and updating my site, and in the morning, i helped out di's brother for their social org's "big brother program". di, joan and i [ being the psych majors that we are ] screened around 28 students by interviewing them to find out if they are mentally/emotionally fit for the mentoring program [ each kid will be matched up with a "big brother" with the same interests who will help him in his future career ]. it lasted for only a few hours. and despite the slight fatigue [ imagine asking the same questions to strangers over and over ], we had fun exchanging the latest chismis [ hehe ] during the break. we even got a free jollibee meal. ehe.
i interviewed around 10 students out of the 28. each student was sharing his dreams/future plans, and it's nice to believe that they will pursue their careers and all become successful one day. but due to the economic and socio-political situation in the country, it's hard not to be cynical. the mentoring program would definitely be very favorable to the students, but not all would be picked. the hardest part for me was probably choosing which students to admit into the program. they all had potential, and i think they all needed a mentor. i just hope that they would seek some form of help in the future to guide them in their pursuits. i was actually tempted to help out this one kid who is interested in painting and wants to take up fine arts in college. hehe i think my altruistic side is turning into a messianic complex.
anyway, these are some funny things that happened from yesterday's interview:
hehe. you find a lot of interesting people everyday.
God doesn't want you to live in an endless cycle of defeat.
- Joshua Harris, Not Even a Hint
lifted from the planner i bought from GCF last month. i've been assuring myself with this thought over and over lately. wala lang.
the link to this quiz was sent by CJ through the block e-group.
hehe. i don't know if i should be alarmed with the result. i was anticipating the same outcome though. take the quiz also and tell me what your age is. (para di lang ako yung abnormal hehe)
You Are 19 Years Old |
19 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
my parents, by the way, are in the US for the rotary convention thing (my dad's the district governor, among other things to add to his long list of credentials). i never realized how quiet it is to be at home by myself until now (well the manangs are still here plus bubbles and peewee hehe). being an only child isn't so bad though. hehe.
i'm supposed to be studying for the labor midterms, but procrastinating is just so much fun.
yesterday, we spent the whole day finding a labor dispute case for labor relations class. what was supposed to be a 2 hour activity in TUCP (how exciting :P~) turned out to be a whole day event [ thanks to the some very "helpful" individuals in TUCP who insist that they burn all their records and my superb driving skills that got us lost and circling the makati area for a full hour.. ]. i was with chi, nico and oggs. we waited the whole morning in TUCP for the lawyer we talked to before, but since it was getting late, we were told to just talk to another lawyer. we were able to get a case, but we wanted to have other options so we proceeded to my dad's office after eating at super bowl along jupiter st. at the end of the day, we were so wasted we literally laughed at almost anything. hehe. as if doesn't happen on normal days.
yesterday seemed to be a good ending to a terrible week. since last friday's agency exam, i've been having doubts about law school again since i feel that i don't seem to excel no matter how much i study, and other people who don't study as much as i do are performing better. i've succumbed to the thought that yes, i'm just inherently less intelligent than the rest of the batch and if i want to measure up to them, i should probably stop doing everything else and devote each hour of the day studying. spending the whole day with my friends yesterday didn't change that main thought, but at least it was a good break from the stress and boredom of law school.
these are some pictures from yesterday's "field trip". no, we didn't pose intentionally under the labor union logos because we think they're nice. most of the pictures here are needed for class [ proof that we're actually doing something ].
i download free mp3's. so sue me.
i promised myself more than a year ago that i'll stop downloading mp3's from the net and instead buy original cd's everytime. well, the idea didn't really materialize because of my regard for ethics and the law; kazaa just became too unreliable and inconvenient for a dial-up user. well, the whole "stop piracy" stand didn't last long. for one, didn't prove to be too allowance-friendly . also, i now have a stock of cd's i don't listen much to anymore because i only like 1/2 songs in the entire album, and by now i've grown tired of them already. they're now left scattered all over my room. and so, i decided to download the kazaa program again just last week. 'turned out it was probably the virus that was slowing down my computer before and not really the program itself, and the program is still very good. i downloaded a lot of songs already [ jars of clay's "show you love", frou frou's "let go", yes, including blackeyed peas' "let's get started" and some unpopular ones like longwave's "tidal wave" and pitty sing's "radio" ] and i also compiled my first cd since my college days [ specifically january 2003 ] which i'm loving so much right now. this is a big deal for me - the college cd held a lot of good memories and it took me quite a long time to get over it [ i still miss college a lot ]. but now i'm very happy with this new cd and it's the only set i've listened to since i burned it. it's like letting go of a used-to-be-perfect pair of jeans that don't fit you anymore because you've gained a lot of weight, and then finding a new pair that is two sizes bigger but suits you just as perfectly. [ sorry if i don't make sense. at pasensya na sa kababawan. hehe ] wala lang.
by the way, if you want a gmail e-mail account, just tell me. [ free e-mail with 1 gigabyte storage space ]. i have 50 more invites.
mag-aral na nga ako ng labor.
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we didn't push through with the la union trip, which leaves me more time to do other things. although i really wanted to go to the beach [ and try surfing again hehe ], i was also relieved that we weren't going to la union. maybe the thought of travelling for 4 hours on the road is just too tiring, or i just feel too fat to fit in any swimsuit. hehe.
i won't be able to use my recently purchased frogeye camera, though.. oh well..
so yesterday, i enrolled for the second sem, no matter how sick i am of law school. i got my grades also. i got a grade of 2 for the other subjects. i'm just glad i'm not the lowest again in those subjects. damn property. and sales. we found out that our second sem grade is worse than the first sem - we have three classes on saturdays. aaagggghhhhh. i hate it how everytime i go to school on saturday morning, i see students in casual attire, going with their parents somewhere to play badminton or whatever. i can't feel the weekend anymore. it has become numb like a leg that has been sat on for too long. the worse part is, we got avena for civpro, the professor who flunks half of his students every sem. goodbye social life. [ what social life? ] goodbye long hours of sleep. i'd better stock up on coffee [ although it barely works on me ] to stay awake.
afterwards, we ate at the old spaghetti house at katipunan with mama, neil, oggs, grace and nico.
what to do on my last 3 days of freedom
i can't believe the whole break is ending. anyway, this is what i'm doing with the very limited time i have:
make my room at least livable. fix old cases. the damn law books, cases, etc. are taking up more space in my room than anything! i thought putting the papers in little boxes would minimize space, but i think it just made my room look more crowded.
Go to the Admit 1 party tonight. i just got this from one of the e-groups. i was so frustrated that i wasn't able to go to the imago launch last night, which was held here in fairview, so i'll make sure that i'm going to the admit one concert. sulit talaga yung lineup. imago's playing again! along with other great bands:
You are invited to the Admit 1-2-3 Party! Join us as Admit One celebrates its 3rd year anniversary with:
attend art class tomorrow. i attended art class last wednesday. and mr. sena pointed out to me this one student, who, apparently, is an RTC [hanging] judge, who's a UP alumni. i always feel intimdated with the presence of such people. i tried not to look at her direction the whole time [ she was across me ], scared that she would eat me alive. hehe. sir even joked that i might turn out to be a judge in the future also. hwahaha.
study for property. kidding.
watch movies! neil and i watched the first half of kung pow yesterday. hehehe. it's probably the best no-brainer i've ever seen.
wala lang shots
i just love my digital camera.
the first two were taken at greenbelt cinema.
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i'm all better now, something i'm really thankful for. i can eat as much as i want once again! hehe. going on a forced diet is not good at all. it was...sad. awhile ago, i devoured more than a cup of rice and chicken corn cakes at our favorite thai resto, thai kitchen, in tomas morato, with my mom and neil. yes. i am back in action. hehe.
afterwards, we went to megamall. i honestly hate megamall because it's always crowded and i can't always seem to find the shops i want. nevertheless, i still managed to shop. i bought, for the nth time, a pair of rubber flip flops, this a pair of white havaianas from chocolate. neil bought a pair of shoes also from the same store.
went home afterwards, finished the drawing i have to submit for art class.
well, things have been ok, but of course my troubles [ on law school, what else ] are not yet over. see next paragraph.
the grades for sales law were released this morning. and i got... *drumroll*... a 2.75! gawd i am so stupid. i honestly want to quit law school. isn't it obvious yet that UP is undoing its reversible error of accepting me and is already taking steps to pull me out of its roster of scholars ["ng bayan"]? i always feel that i'm wasting away precious years by being in law school because, after this is all over, i wouldn't want to become a lawyer anyway. i hate the stress, the fact that all lawyers are evil in one way or another, the corruption, the frats, the egoism. i hate it when i see lawyers on tv/in magazines wearing their black/gray suits looking all serious and downright boring and think that i'll be like that in the future. ugh. i hate debates and saying how many "therefors" and "thereofs" in a single sentence and outdated laws and bar exams and everything that the profession is made of. i'm only in law school because of the prestige, the money and my father. i am there for such a selfish motive that i deserve to be kicked out and transferred to a less stressful venture.
haa... damn.
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had a new haircut..
and i don't know how i should feel about it. i wanted a different style other than my long straight hair that doesn't have any character at all, so i had it layered, with bangs up front. i actually asked our hairstylist at salon de manila for suggestions, and she brought that up, and said that "it's what everyone wants". and so i had it done. right now, everywhere i go, i see my hairstyle on everyone, from tv personalities to law school people. so much for character and uniqueness. nevertheless, i like it better since it doesn't make my face look so round.
school..
'got called for recit in class, by the way, for the first time this sem. and it happened to be the subject my dad's brod is teaching. anyway, i didn't screw up, i answered all the questions [it was a short comparably short recit, he only asked 1 case], and he turned out to be nice after all, unlike the other teachers who would hurl chairs and other inanimate objects at their students. well, for me not screwing up, stuttering and mumbling and getting mental blocks during a recit is quite an achievement. well, glad that's over.
it's the dogs' version of friendster. hehe. because i'm procrastinating, i signed up for bubbles. view it here.
new favorite song
this is my current life anthem [aside from "clocks" by coldplay, which i haven't deciphered yet] - sarah mclachlan's "fallen". this is for every stupid move, every neurotic attack, every burst of insanity, every wrong decision, every humiliating moment and every bad memory in my life. i just love sarah mclachlan's song and how much she accurately depicts life's candid moments through her songs.
Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
THh past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.
I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
another one from quizilla
Nihilist Bear
Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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hehe. i should be studying now.
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it's the first day of june. usually, this day would send shivers up and down my spine, since June is always correlated with school and every other [mostly] bad thing that comes with it. but today, i feel neutral. maybe it's due to the fact that i'm not yet in Manila, so i haven't actually faced reality yet. maybe when i see the UP malcolm hall again i'll go hysterical.
we just shopped around today. the farthest place we've ever gone to in Maryland is probably the farthest Old Navy store from our place. due to mama's condition and the limited time we have, we weren't able to go around touring the place as originally planned; we didn't even go to washington, which is only a 40-minute drive from here. this is definitely one vacation i wouldn't file under "holiday". nevertheless, it was still fun, and i'm glad i was able to see my family in the states again. this is the first time the 4 of us [my mom, sister, brother and me] got together here in the states, and it's also the first time i saw my 1 year old niece and nephew.
babysitting. today, my almost-1-year-old nephew, toby was supposed to be dropped off at my brother's sister-in-law's place so my brother and i wouldn't have to take care of him when we go out. but i asked if he could come with us instead. besides, this is the second to the last day i'll be seeing him this year. and so, the whole day, my brother and i took turns babysitting him. we gave him a bath [my brother and i didn't know how to, so toby ended up smelling like how he used to before we gave him a bath, which is a bit bad], we changed his diapers, i fed him and sang [actually, hummed] him to sleep. good thing he didn't cry much when i carry him anymore; he giggles and talks a lot more now than a few days ago. agh. i'll definitely feel bad again about leaving him on thursday. of course i'll miss benjo too, even if he scares me off with secadas and runs around the house using my bra. bwehe. i'll miss his curious questions and mischievous comments [like, 'do you have a boyfriend?' and 'mama cyma's confusing me pointing at a lot of sexy girls!' and 'i'm going to make her like me by kissing her' gawd, what is it with kids these days?]. as i've said in my previous entry, it's always harder to part with the kids.
my sister told me sophia still recognizes me and my mom from the videos and pictures. one time she pointed at us on the tv screen [from the videos] and she hugged her mom tight. and she always looks for us around the house.. haa... it's sad...
mama's quirks. when mama's not feeling bad, she always comes up with unintentionally funny quips that my sister and i quote a lot. yesterday, while we were watching this show where this couple was making out, she asked me to cover my eyes. hehe. she probably thinks i'm still benjo's age. and back home, she asked me to videotape american idol reject william hung's 'she bangs' video so i could show it to my siblings in the states. hehehe. oh well.
just some questions hovering in my mind, about my short term and long term future:
argh. screw friendster. the last two messages i received are a message from a person named "dhon" and another from a guy named "jhun", asking me to add them to my friends list. not that i'm being matapobre laughing at and discriminating against people with unecessary letters in their names, but i just hate it when my inbox fills up with messages from strangers i won't even think about adding anyway.
one of my favorite songs now, lest i forget
Away From The Sun [by three doors down]
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone do what I've done
I missed life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone go where I am
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again
I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't do what I've done
And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
wala lang.
these are two tickets to the INCUBUS CONCERT on march 12, 2004!! i finally got them awhile ago, after neil and i paid for them in sm north. weki actually reserved five tickets in the 2038 pesos section, but i don't think they're still getting their tickets since pat and the others wanted to sit in the 992 pesos section. [ i honestly feel like such a brat insisting that i want to sit in front, but i already asked my mom for 2 thou, and besides, i don't think there are any more decent seats available in the 992 section. i think all the seats there are taken, and the people have to stand up to watch. and opportunities like this come once in a lifetime, and i'm not going to let it pass ] anyway, we asked the lady there if there are other tickets availabe, and she told us that there are 2 tickets in row 26, which was 20 rows in front of the seats weki reserved (row 46). we hesitated to get them, since we had to consult weki first, so we called her. by the time we got back to the counter, the seats were already taken. ARGH. just our luck. well, i guess 46 rows from brandon boyd isn't so bad. it's not as if he's going to look like a tiny speck from where we will be seated. and it's an open field anyway, so i'll bet people would be moving around the place the whole time, so i guess it wouldn't be that difficult to move closer to the stage. and i remember watching silverchair back in 3rd year high school, we were pretty far from the stage but we still had a great time anyhow. i can't wait to watch it!! i've always loved incubus eversince i first heard 'counterfeit countdown' on NU, during their gothic/dark era when they still sported the 'rage-against-the-machine' look. i even used "^iNcUbUs" as my handle in irc during those days when i was addicted to chat. (and that was around 6 years ago) i just hope our very considerate teachers would not schedule an examination on that day or the day after that.
by the way, mia told me she heard that coldplay's going to have a concert here as well this march. we seriously doubt it though, since we haven't heard about it from any form of media. but i really hope they would come. this time, i'll reserve early and get the best seats.
i've been meaning to update my blog since last sunday, but i didn't have time, not because i was studying the whole week, but because i would rather sleep than turn on the pc. and i realized that i've been spending too much time in front of the computer last week, and it's actually straining my eyes. i haven't been studying much because i was already called for recit in all subjects, and two of my teachers exhaust all students first in recit before doing another round. i won't be called again until everyone else has recited already, so i can actually predict when i'll be called. it has its disadvantages though - i'm not motivated anymore to study. good luck to me on finals week.
anyway, this is what i've done for the past week:
feb. 1, sunday: after going to church, neil and i ate at burgoo.
barbecue chicken. it was gooood.
neil had his head shaved again! it really shines! hehehe!! jk neil! :)
by the way, the starstruck (of gma, channel 7) results came out on the same day. click here for the article. (i'm jolog. so sue me. hehehe) i wasn't able to watch it, but my blockmates were talking about it the whole day last monday, so i found out that jennylyn and mark won over yasmien and rainier. actually, i haven't been faithfully watching the whole series. i was just able to watch the very first epsiode, and a few of the next episodes unlike my blockmates. nevertheless, i'm as happy with the results as they are, because like them, i find yasmien and rainier irksome. yasmien looks a bit like bea alonzo while rainier is trying too hard to look like an F4 member.
(for the benefit of the doubt: starstruck is a reality tv show in channel 7, much like the defunct show "star search" in the states. the show became so popular here that even my dad watches it. i think he even watched the last episode last sunday and was even talking the results over with my mom. mwehe.)
feb. 2, monday: i was called for legal profession. it was already the 3rd time i was called in that class. after that class, the "maitim and budhi gang" (hehe. me, grace, chi, mia, nico, oggs, jenn and daisy) pigged out at a veneto pizzeria, along visayas ave. after that, i went to the gym for aero. again, i couldn't follow the steps much (blame it on my inflexible body), but at least i didn't look like a total idiot like i did the last time. tessa couldn't make it, so i didn't have a gym buddy that time. hehe. anyway, after going to the gym, i gained back whatever fat i lost, since neil and i ate a whole plate of sisig at ken afford with james, miko and pao. yes, i think i'm an honorary guy. hehe. i even eat like one. argh.
this is a picture in school, taken with nico's digital cam. but this was taken last week, before crim.
feb. 3, tuesday: not too eventful, except that my brain almost rotted for the whole two hours of oblicon. we were all staring at space, not particularly paying attention to the lecture (to use nico's metaphor, it was like being in a state of coma). to amuse ourselves, we turn on the bluetooth connection in our phones and send each other whatever messages. mitch (who was in front) even takes a picture of our professor and sends it to everyone else. or we ring each other's phones. or we bring food and eat throughout the period just to stay awake. or we pass notes. the whole set-up reminds me so much of high school. i think regression is one of the fatal effects of law school on our psychological makeup.
feb. 4. today: my brain was stagnant for 4 hours this time (consti and oblicon). and our professors even extended the class periods, thinking that it would do us good. oh well. in oblicon, i was called again, but it wasn't a graded recit. i was just mumbling the answer in my seat, and it probably caught the professor's attention so he called me. at least it kept me awake for at least 5 minutes. after class, we just got the incubus tickets and ate again at oody's, tomas morato.
anyway, it's already "love month", and in view of valentine's day, i would post a top-5 list of anything that has to do with love in each of my entries for the whole month. so, today, this is my top 5 list:
my top 5 best love songs
ok, that's it. before someone accuses me of becoming too involved in celebrating valentine's day.
Labels: family, law school, music, random, vday
today's benjo's birthday! it's still too early to call them up in the states, though, so we'll probably just call them tonight.
i'm leaving in a while to watch KILL BILL with my neil, penny, di, ivan and vinci at greenbelt. i've been hearing good reviews about it, so i'm excited to watch it already.
i haven't read anything school related yet, except for a few cases i tried to read this morning. i guess i'm going to cram again tomorrow.. this is hopeless..
last night, we watched "kalintura", the cersa variety show at cervini in ateneo with kris, weki, jenny and james. somehow i still feel like i'm in college. the whole night, i tried to find familiar faces, but everyone else was just unrecognizable (as expected). we saw cesar though, and some graduates from the dorm. there were a lot of bands, although we only got to watch a few since we had to go home early. the whole program started late. at least we were able to watch sugarfree. i just love this band.
before going to the concert, we had a family dinner at tito fred and tita amy's place. i think they arranged a little something for papa to celebrate his being elected rotary governor for 2005. i didn't take pictures, but kris did. i'll ask her to upload them when she has the time.
anyway, some of papa's law school blockmates were there, and for some strange reason, they all look alike. and they look like our current teachers in law school. they're all old and respectable to the point of being intimidating. although i don't think they had any intention to look that way. papa introduced me to them and declared that i'm also from UP law school. i must've looked stupid looking back at them, wearing a bright yellow spongebob t-shirt and a silly grin on my face.
i never realized how stupid i am when it comes to building websites until i encountered movable type, xhtml, etc etc in other people's websites. i was thinking about purchasing my own space in the net, and probably even a domain name so i could easily update my blog and album. i thought that my limited knowledge of html would suffice. and boy was i wrong. i realized that i have to know scripts, languages and whatever, and i don't know when i'll squeeze all of those in between reading all my law books and cases. hay. damn law school getting in the way of my interests. i knew i should've taken up comm. it would've been more fun. but then again, i wouldn't have any future. i'll probably cut down on my sleep time. i spend more time snoozing than studying anyway.
got this nice journal from 'a different bookstore' in eastwood, libis (it has become my favorite place lately). notice the unread cases behind it. there were a lot of nice designs, but i think this one suits me more in terms of color. and i'm hoping the quote would have a subliminal effect on me.
time to log off now. more cases to read. =P
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